11. Day 16: Extending Love To Worry
The other day I just woke up ready to cry. My saddened, sodden pile of thoughts left me feeling damp, cold, heavy and unforgiving. It took me a while to realize this feeling/thought cluster was worry. Our prolonged trip and time of rest had nearly all but wiped worry from my radar; enough so as I didn’t recognize the feeling at first. Now recognized, I saw the thoughts wanted to drag years of past responses and memories as the demonstration as to why worry was not only needed but the obvious best option. I thought to myself, “Not this time. Worry, you may stop right there, I...
Read More11. Day 15: A Mighty Peace
I read today these known words in a book I randomly picked up off my bookshelf: “If thou canst but believe; all things are possible to him who believes.” It is the crux of opening up to success of any kind. And it bloody annoys me. It stirs up in me anger, hurt and shame because I again wonder, “Why and how could I have forgotten who and what I am?” This is what is being forgiven in my extending love to the fear of success. This deep angry, annoyed, entitled shame. Shame, not that I allowed the forgetting, but that I am caught out. I could not outwit,...
Read More9. Day 8: Let Your Joy Be Whole
I must confess that I feel a bit naughty or selfish even choosing joy, or living joy. I mean, there is still so much pain and suffering in the world at large and even in my local vision (the homeless man outside the SPA Grocery selling a magazine). Why do I get to be full of joy if there is still pain? This has actually been a question that has plagued me in many ways for years. Why do I get the nice family and pleasant circumstances when others are so unhappy? I naturally took this to Holy Spirit and was heartened, as always, with the gentle response. HS: Precious One, Fear not. This...
Read More9. Day 7: Joy Is A Loving Use Of Money
I have been concerned with money on this trip. Did we overextend? Will there be enough? Everything is so much more expensive than I anticipated (everyone said this would happen). And add to this a 20% VAT (Value Added Tax) on everything; hotel, fuel, food, all purchases, even BNI memberships and plumbing costs. It is easy to either panic and buy more than I need or go to ground and withdraw and not fully experience our time which has been truly gifted us. It has been good to have a more working week just gone. Events, meetings, networking and getting to know our sister region. I just...
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