9. Day 24: Silent Night, Holy Night
Our plan for the day included lunch with some BNI Connect friends, a carol service at St. Paul’s Cathedral, dinner and the West End play “The Play That Goes Wrong”. It also ended up including letting the maintenance guy in to repair the washing machine, grocery shopping for a Christmas Cake and walking for miles. The thronging crowds reminded me it was also one of the last shopping days before Christmas. I had a little cough on the Underground which blew up into another coughing fit at the wonderful Indian restaurant where we were meeting friends known previously only in...
Read More8. Day 8: The Knowing Of Creation
I continue to ask Holy Spirit for insight and willingness to be with Not-Knowing without agenda. HS: Relax into Not-Knowing. The knowing of creation will come at exactly the perfect time. In every case there will be, is, and was everything you need at hand. Nothing is left to chance. Not-Knowing is not chance or random or a roll of the dice. Not-Knowing is from which all is chosen, created, extended and delighted in. Fear not this vastness–it is not a place, a moment or a decision–it is the stuff of ALL-IS. The more comfortable you are with Not-Knowing and ALL-IS the more...
Read More7. Day 23: The Wedding Practice
Earlier this month I explored 100 Ways To Be Aware Of Honesty with Holy Spirit. I keep returning to this list for inspiration, guidance, and to see how far my awareness has come in just a few weeks. What jumps out at me today is how it was a revelation that I could encourage, allow and welcome honesty in others by being honest with myself. I didn’t realize my own hesitation to be honest with myself actually sends the message that honesty is not entirely welcome. It was with a big gulp that I decided that honesty was, indeed, a two way street. If I was going to go within and hear my...
Read More4. Day 24: When You Utterly Relax Into The Light
After celebrating my daughter’s 21 st birthday yesterday (in fact the fun continues for the next few days;) I was asking myself, what is it I am actually letting go in seeing her move on into what the world seems to agree on as adulthood, after all she has been living on her own at college, flew to Italy alone last summer and has already voted in a Presidential election? When I think of letting go as saying goodbye I am filled with conflicting emotions, happy/sad, delight/doubt, jubilation/trepidation. When I allow the thought of letting go as possibly me opening my eyes and letting...
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I am alone in the house for the first time in weeks. The air is cool, the room shaded nicely by matchstick blinds on the porch. I am alone. Relief. Peace. Quiet. Joy. Breath. Time to notice I am here. Pace is stop. Halt. Desist. Off. Relaxation of letting go……………….. When there is always a next thing looming, however delightful, this moment already feels stolen. I lived these last weeks reasonably in the present moment. Truth is, the most momentous of graduation, commissioning, send off and arrival of quests were entirely ordinary–and that was...
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