8. Day 15: The Luxury Of Ordinary
The biggest surprise so far in our sojourn in London is just how satisfied we both are doing the ordinary things. We still are waking at Midnight for a time then going back to bed at 2am. I welcome this middle of the night time of quiet togetherness. We tend to each read or write quietly, just sitting in the same room in silence with no immediate meeting imminent is itself a gift. We are discombobulated by the rapid change of fortune from working every minute to this thing called time off. That it takes getting used to is the surprise. This is where ordinary comes in. We are...
Read More8. Day 14: Why Takes A Holiday
I need to know why. Why??!!! My husband asks “How?” Together we want to know. And this is the month of extending love to Not-Knowing. How perfect is it then that we get to be in a brand new, yet ancient place. We have now arrived in London and woken to rain. Rain, alone, washed away my usual need to know “why?” Coming from such drought in California it is such a glorious gift and joy just to see gray skies and hear the rain drops steadily on the roof I am deliciously immersed in the present moment. I think, for me, why includes past, present and future...
Read More8. Day 13: Dread Locks Open To Holiness
I have woken with a feeling of compressing, heavy tightness in my chest, I feel like a black hole is forming in my chest and it is so dense it could drag all of me in. I don’t necessarily feel fear but……..what? Anxiety? Exhaustion? Would’ve/should’ve/could’ve? Worthlessness? Fake/phony? I am dreading that our trip could not possibly be all that I hope it to be. Maybe that is the feeling, dread. Oh. Ok, what is this feeling HS? Help me to extend love right here, right now. Thank you. I extend generosity to this thought. Dear Dread, Whatever you...
Read More8. Day 12: Going With God
I love airports. They are such a picture of an in-between world. All who come are welcome. Thousands of strangers rub shoulders and glances and kindness and annoyance on their way to somewhere else. I love it because when I have finally made it to the airport I know I am on my way. This is not to be confused with having arrived. An interesting distinction. I am, indeed, on my way to feeling less fearful of Not-Knowing but I have not arrived. Right now, as the hours and minutes tick down to our boarding the plane I am experiencing tumultuous feelings and thoughts: gratitude,...
Read More8. Day 11: The Answers Will Find You
Today is my last day in country before embarking on a sabbatical and work trip to England with my husband. This trip came about in the usual way with an idea, an opportunity and a great leap into the infinite Not-Knowing. The trip itself is not so unusual. Traveling overseas gets easier and easier with technology allowing best price and a buffet of choices. What is different, nay, almost unheard of, is that we will be gone for nearly two months. This time will be punctuated with networking and business opportunities but what I am most looking forward to is unplugging from our daily life...
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