6. Day 20: The Thing About Tiredness
What I am beginning to notice about tiredness is that it is present whether I extend love to it or not. Perhaps this is like a hair color or being short, it just is. Of course I can go blonde if I want to (and I do) or wear high heals (not so much) to alter what is but does it really alter the limited self of brown-eyed, fifty-something, 5′ 2″ Eva? No, not really. What is getting clearer is that when I extend love I am reminded that I am love. Not that love gets rid of what I don’t want. Or that love can change everything in a moment, although it does. What changes...
Read More6. Day 19: Short-stack Of Love
Today I am feeling the tiredness I seek to extend love to. Thank you. It is quite real at this moment, I want only to curl up in a cosy corner and forget any and all that I need to do. The truth is, in this very moment, I need do nothing. I can bask in the deep peace of my being and drink from the living water once again. Today my heart is reminded by two poems I wrote six years ago that God is Love and Love is all I need. True then. True now. That’s the beauty of eternal truth; true then, now and always. “My All” I thank my Father for His gifts to me, they are...
Read More6. Day 18: What Is Your Energy Saying To You?
I have felt subdued with my revelation about the devaluing way that I see. Crushed actually. It was painful to have the bandaid of working hard (to the point of exhaustion) ripped off to see the false seeing exposed underneath. I was moping when Holy Spirit’s voice came through in the bathroom (my favorite quick meditation getaway). HS: Devaluing is not actually changing value. This cannot be done. De-valuing is simply closing your eyes. Open your eyes darling to what is directly in front of you and give thanks. So what is directly in front of me. My husband receives a daily...
Read More6. Day 17: Holy Sh**, Am I Value-able?!!!
It is late (or early depending on how you look at it) and I cannot sleep. This thought keeps churning in my head like a dog that can’t find a comfortable spot on the blanket: “I am afraid of not working.” After getting up and finally looking at this thought (I extend noticing to this thought) the truer thought was revealed: “I am afraid of not creating value.” I want to always create value; in time, experience, object, design, moment and reason. I judge harshly something I see as lacking in value–either something I do/don’t do or something...
Read More6. Day 16: Can Joy Be My Guide?
The practice of noticing what I feel like in my body is quite interesting. I am beginning to see my body is shimmering with life and that noticing it actually shifts the energy somehow. The more I do this the more I feel like I am feeling into the feeling of joy. What does joy feel like? It feels just like this time of quiet to me. HS: Time to feel, notice, receive all the blessings that abound. No judgment, just acceptance, welcome, trust. Real delight is knowing THERE IS NOTHING WRONG. Ever. Spaciousness; feeling this in everything. There is room enough for all feelings, thoughts,...
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