3. Day 19: M & M’s and Sunglasses!
We have had the most wonderful time in the last days and weeks celebrating our daughter’s graduation from university. Family and friends gathered in so many ways from so many places. We ate, drank and made merry in all the usual ways. I bought so many groceries that I was given honorary staff status at our local Bel Air and Whole Foods; candles were lit, pina colada’s mixed, laundry run, presents wrapped and even a lightening trip to Ashland, OR and Crater Lake National Park for our out-of-town visitors. We are great hosts. Still, guilt can raise its head inside me and say,...
Read More3. Day 18: Over-thinking Guilt Pays Off
Why DO I choose guilt? Seriously. WHY? Guilt is the only way I know of that covers an inequitable situation: 1. the thing I want and need for me & 2. the thing I should want and need for me. It is what I use to cover the seeming disparity between following my own heart and yet seeing myself or a loved one need or expect something different. I guess I feel like I should pay a penalty of sorts for following my own heart/desire rather than what I or God (or a loved one) expects of me, or what should be the best. Me: HS, how else can I view the seeming disparity between what I want...
Read More3. Day 17: Ready, Willing & Able
What is a practice I can do to let go of my attraction to guilt? How can I express harmlessness to my self? HS: Dearest One, You are doing this right now. Your continued willingness to ask and listen literally is creating pathways of open communication from Divine into current awareness in this visible world you see to be in. You have already begun to notice and be aware of a practice that will allow you to let go of the need for guilt. The practice of harmlessness to your body will bring your awareness alive on a cellular level. Your body lives to communicate my love for you; let it...
Read More3. Day 16: All Aspects Of Love Are Needed
Yesterday we talked about what guilt felt like. I want to know now, how to greet this fear in love? Where do I even start? HS: As always dear One, start where you are. Extend a quality or flavor of love to your body, your feelings, the moment. Notice if your feelings or thoughts can be clarified or do they remain wordless or nebulous. All this really does is give you time, awareness and willingness with your Self. This Self is you; your heart, will and desire. You have concocted quite a story of not-self and somewhere along the live you have believed this story. Now it is time for the...
Read More3. Day 15: A Drop In Love Pressure
What does guilt feel like, in my body? It feels metallic, like an acid bath; cold heat, systemic, down and up from center, pouring, searing a thudding FULL STOP. It feels like what I imagine a mild electrocution might feel like. Me: Holy Spirit, what is this and why does it act in this way? HS: Dearest One, this experience you have with guilt is visceral, though not universal. You feel and are aware of the feelings of fear acutely. This has been a gift you are now ready and willing to open. Many of your brothers must wait to notice fear after it has upset the balance in their outer...
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