10. Day 11: On Blogging Daily & Going Commando
I am only now beginning to glimpse how valuable this daily blog is to me. I began with guidance, in this case the word “twelvemonth”. Then twelvemonth revealed itself as a “Twelvemonth of Self Love”. I already journal daily. I am also composing a Holy Dictionary with the incredible and beautiful definitions I hear from Holy Spirit. I write poetry because even my own wordiness gets in my way of expression and only the limits of a poem offers the relief of truth expressed. I also wrote a blog called Salvation Chronicles when I was first testing out my voice,...
Read More10. Day 10: Fear Is A Stoplight
I woke up today with a feeling of shadow passing over me. I didn’t feel grey exactly but there was definitely a presence of gray with a soupçon of lurking. Since I actually feel rested, happy and satisfied I could notice this “feeling presence” without alarm. I got up and decided to have a cup of tea with this gray feeling presence and see what happened. First I lit a candle, put the kettle on and generally got comfortable. The gray seemed less ominous already but still present, just out of sight. Then these words floated into my awareness: Fear is a stoplight. Oh....
Read More10. Day 8 & 9: What Does Work Have To Do With It?
Ok. I admit it. It is kind of hard returning to work after being away for so long. Not hard in an impossible way but hard in a “I don’t actually remember how to” way. I literally do not quite remember how we fit so many things into a 24 hour period each day in the past. Even though we fit tons of cool things into each day (even including maintenance) on our adventure in England I can’t remember how to work, or even, if I am to be completely honest, what “work” even means. I can’t quite remember what my part is. It is almost like I am being...
Read More10. Day 7: Peace, Quiet & Jet Lag
Sometimes the infinite nature of Love feels scary. I am thrilled of course that Love is infinite, all powerful and ever present; ready, willing and able to be, forgive and comfort. But sometimes I need and want just the very teeniest of Love’s expressions; a look, stillness, a breath. The idea of BIG LOVE or even extending a quality of love can seem too much, overhwelming and not-enough all at the same time. This must be the time for utter stillness…..presence……….being……… I...
Read More10. Day 6: A Better Question
I noticed yesterday if I felt the feeling of fear (tightness, churlishness or emptiness) I immediately wanted to know “of what”, like I must have something I am afraid of or it is not justified. Perhaps a better question would be “What am I not loving?” instead of “What am I afraid of?” Right now I am not loving the possibility that we have forgotten important procedural information after not using it for so long. I am not loving that there is still a mess of books, postcards, gifts to mail, receipts etc. on the dining table. I am not loving that the...
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