Posts Tagged "month 1"

1. Day 5: Me, Myself, & I

Posted by on Apr 1, 2014 in All-One, Extending love to my thoughts, Fear of Commitment, Holy Spirit Says | 2 comments

1. Day 5:  Me, Myself, & I

I am beginning to notice a pattern. Me in fear. Me in my right mind. Then deeper still Me in my Holiness (I still call this Holy Spirit because when I begin it still feels a l….o…..n…….g way away from who and where I am).   4am Me in fear:  I feel nervous, excited and stupid (Why am I doing this to myself?) I fear the focus on fear. (What you focus on multiplies.) I am afraid of getting obsessive (Who me?).  This must be why alcoholics avoid drink. Am I this way about work/a specific project? Do I obsess and abandon all Self in the ensuing crush of insanity? Is there something else...

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1. Day 4: BE JUICY EXPRESS LOVE

Posted by on Mar 31, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Commitment, Poetry | 0 comments

1. Day 4: BE JUICY EXPRESS LOVE

More thoughts re my fear of commitment: I’m afraid if I commit to a project and am successful, I might outshine another who needs success more than I. I’m afraid I haven’t thought of everything. I’m still counting on SOMEONE ELSE to give me the go ahead, the approval, the big thumbs up. Can I really, truly trust my OWN inner guidance on this blog? I don’t’ know where to write what, help, help, HELP, HELP!!!!!!!!!!! I need large chunks of time without appointment or plan. I love to soak in the holiness of my own heart. When I play the whirligig game of fast living the world insists on, I give...

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1. Day 3: Extending Love to My Thoughts

Posted by on Mar 29, 2014 in All-One, Extending love to my thoughts | 2 comments

1. Day 3:  Extending Love to My Thoughts

Before I begin in earnest I want to share briefly what my practice of extending love to my thoughts  looks like. I learned how to extend love to my thoughts when I became an ordained Voice for Love  minister.  Essentially this is a practice of stillness and noticing my thoughts without judgment then simply extending a color or facet of love to the thoughts that I notice.  The big AHA for me was thinking about Love in terms of qualities, colors or facets (kindness, acceptance, stillness; pouring out light as if it were honey; welcoming my thoughts with a hug or a deep bow).  I knew that I...

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1. Day 2: A Daily Commitment of Self Love

Posted by on Mar 27, 2014 in All-One, Holy Spirit Says | 0 comments

1. Day 2:  A Daily Commitment of Self Love

So we begin with commitment.  Ugh, yuck & yippee.  This is where the rubber meets the road (hopefully without the added mess of road kill.)  My husband who truly wrote the book on commitment started the day with exhaustion in his voice.  I asked him what he needed that he wasn’t getting?  His answer:  relief, time, quiet & completion.  This is, in a nutshell, why I fear commitment to a task.  I have seen it lead to this: tasks done = peace, relief, joy tasks not done = tension, hurry, anger. As Holy Spirit guided I will begin extending love to commitment. For the next 30 days.  Then...

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1. Day 1: A Twelvemonth of Self Love

Posted by on Mar 25, 2014 in All-One, Extending love to my thoughts, Holy Spirit Says | 4 comments

1. Day 1:  A Twelvemonth of Self Love

Getting Started.  I have been guided to write and experience 12 months of extending love to my deepest fears, my nemeses in fact.  The ones I really don’t want to look at unless forced (usually at the hands of the unexpected or an emergency). These are my thoughts I am aware of at the moment: Why wouldn’t I want to do this? What is this feeling I’m feeling right now? Doomed to failure. Flash in the pan. No stick-to-it-iveness. Lazy. It’s hard and not worth the effort.  I don’t have to.  I don’t know how.   A commitment to work traps you (& those around you). Could love really make a...

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