1. Day 15: Creation is a By-product of the Awareness of Love
What DO I really want? I want commitment to matter, to show, to have a purpose. I want it to lead to revelation or greater awareness to Love’s presence and a greater awareness of my own strength, holiness and delight. If I’m honest, I feel commitment will also lead to a created form, a body of work or experience that is useful, precious and lovingly beneficial to all. I need to extend love to not knowing if commitment serves a grander purpose or is going to be truly useful and beneficial: I extend transparency to this thought. HS: Precious One, As with all things, Love’s motive and...
Read More1. Day 14: Disappointment Veils the Truth
I have been waiting for this one. Today I got to experience disappointment. It is real in this moment. I was to have some technical and moral support in this Twelvemonth.me project from a trusted source who, in following her own guidance, lovingly backed out. So now I get to extend love to someone else’s lack of commitment. The irony is rich. Of course there really IS no one else. It is my own fear of keeping a commitment playing out for me. Even though I am dimly aware the disappointment lies within me, it is easier, safer for me to project it out in a weak form of blame, “Well,...
Read More1. Day 13: Loving Circle of Care
Holy Spirit and I look in the mirror together: HS: Dearest One, I see a woman who has spent her whole life loving and caring for others; dolls, friends, teachers, parents, husband, children, members, clients and now is discovering that one person was left out of that loving circle of care. You, your Self, and I Am. Dearest One, you have done nothing wrong by caring for others or for forgetting your own dear Self. The real Beauty here is that you did hear your Self calling and you answered. This is where the real juice is for this is where memory and future become one, this is where the...
Read More1. Day 12: Sneaky Thoughts Can Block Your Awareness to Love’s Presence
I am feeling less daunted by my commitment to this Twelvemonth practice of extending love to epic fears. I feel supported, guided and curious within myself about where we are going. In the beginning, when the idea was first forming I thought I knew where I would start (money, food, stress etc.) but when fear of commitment was suggested by Holy Spirit I knew this would be a journey for me instead of just by me. Yesterday I heard my commitment calling like a friend who wanted to play rather than a taskmaster who demanded perfection. I couldn’t help but join in the fun. If I think of 365...
Read More1. Day 11: Be Soft with the Fear
Most days begin with my awareness of the thought “something is not quite perfect” or “I’m tired”. Usually their needs are obvious. This morning, however, I was confronted with unnamed fear and a feeling of lack of safety. Here is what Holy Spirit said: HS: Gently invite your fears to come and tell you what they most need you to know. All this timing is to be as it is. There is no need to force timing when your intention is already set. The intention creates the welcoming safety that will gently draw out your fears and concerns and unseen feelings. Sometimes when I am stuck I interview...
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