2. Day 30: The Jig Is Up
Depression has a very low opinion of everything and everyone. I know. The jig is up. This is a totally untrue statement. You knew from the very first moment you read it in the “21 Fear Salute” didn’t you? You were afraid to even allow this thought to exist so you closed yourself off from it; clamping down and closing your eyes. The thing is, this is how you forget your precious self. When you close your eyes to anything, you close your eyes to everything. 21. A very low opinion of everything and everyone. HS: Dearest One, Opinion is a small use of energy and...
Read More2. Day 29: Precious One
The thing I love most about depression is this certainty of not being incredibly precious, valuable and vital to both the world’s collective happiness and to your own. I get it, it feels like nothing is worth it, that you are not worth it but have you ever asked yourself: Is this true? Go on. Ask. I dare you. Take a deep breath and relax. Close your eyes and sink into the quiet. What do you feel? In this moment is there really anything you need? We are finally getting to the bottom of the the list [of the “21 Fear Salute” of depression] and to the crux of the issue....
Read More2. Day 28: Action Is Essentional to Living
Safety is the key to moving forward. Moving is also key to moving forward. How can you feel safe when you don’t? How can you move forward if you don’t feel safe? How can you trust the desires of your heart when you don’t really trust your self? I just read an article in a recent Town & Country touting the benefits of a personal nutritionist (soon to be followed by a personal farmer). We are inundated with expert advice, none of it our own. We will take credit for the wisdom to hire an expert but that is as far as it goes. When did our own instincts and heart get...
Read More2. Day 26: No One Understands Me
Yesterday we practiced expanding the size of our seeing to notice when Wrong IS. Today let’s look at when we feel that wrongness in the way we are not being understood by others. Depression’s 21 fears must work very hard at covering over our awareness of Love’s Presence which is why it feels so exhausting. The fear of not being understood (and there’s no point of explaining myself) can be very limiting to your awareness of your own self. 17. Fear of not being understood (there is no point in explaining myself) It is time to extend love to this thought: I...
Read More2. Day 25: Fear Of Being Wrong
Let’s just get this one right out in the open for all to see. We are all afraid of being wrong. Because right is, well, RIGHT. Wrong is NOT being right. Wrong is confirmation of being wrong; missing the mark; not being good enough (or fast enough or clever enough). Wrong is the opposite of getting what you thought you wanted. Wrong is losing, forgetting, being late. Wrong is your Mother winning (or your spouse or annoying neighbor). Wrong is missing the boat, the plane or the point. Wrong is not knowing what to do. Wrong is throwing in the towel. Wrong is a terrible case of...
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