12. Day 2: Do Feelings Lie?
Here are some hard truths I am learning about what I think about feelings. (I notice I am still thinking about them rather than feeling them but I have to start somewhere.) I was a little surprised as I thought I would describe myself as emotional; I cry when certain ads come on, I respond with laughter or tears as is called for, I have been told (by my Mother when I was little) that I wear my feelings on my sleeve. So to look again and see I have a rather low opinion of feelings is a bit startling. The thoughts in no particular order: 1. There is not enough time to feel feelings 2....
Read More12. Day 1: Feelings: Black Hole Or Morning Star?
“I don’t know what to think about my feelings.” I said “Maybe that’s the problem. Thinking about them instead of feeling them.” she said. I was caught out the other day when I was experiencing nausea, headache and weepiness and discovered it was but a call for attendance and expression by some unacknowledged feelings. It made me wonder what else might be lurking inside, desperate for acknowledgement, welcome and expression. I have centered my practice on the premise that Love IS enough. Love is who I am and loving is what I do. In extending love to...
Read More10. Day 31: A Beautiful Fear
The biggest shift I have had in this month of extending love to the fear of fear itself is finding that I m no longer afraid of fear. This does not mean that I don’t ever feel a feeling of fear (or annoyance, doubt or guilt) but that I can recognize the feel, taste and texture so much more quickly and can acknowledge it for what it is. Namely, a call to pause, ASK for guidance, help, perspective and extend love to all I am feeling or the circumstance in front of me. In lessening my fear of fear, fear is exposed as just another energy, emotion, tightening of some kind or specific,...
Read More9. Day 4: A Call In The Middle Of The Night
One of the epic fears we all face and dread is the call in the middle of the night. It is disorienting, shocking, stunning and exhilarating all at the same time. There is something very galvanizing and clarifying about the call, that has a power all its own. In the space of a single message two people integral to our lives, hearts and businesses were taken to hospital. The feeling of helplessness, distance, disbelief and shock set alight a string of thoughts, a majestic display of “what if ?” and manic solution, none of which was really needed. For hours we waited for news,...
Read More6. Day 24: Cascade Of Joy & Gratitude
Annoyance is a quality of my tiredness. Or is tiredness a quality of my annoyance? Let’s just say they come together. Recently our older corgi, Matilda had a rash that got infected. Yuck and ugh. The vet gave her a long course of antibiotics and special shampoo. Of course I have to administer both, which is nearly as much fun at root canal work without the benefit of a kind dentist. Part of the problem is that this dog is carrying too much weight for her frame, this combined with a bit of contact dermatitis led to the greater problem. You can see my annoyance goes deeper than...
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