4. Day 26: The Monotony Of Doubt
It always amazes me how I can doubt (or fear or be annoyed) after feeling the face of God in my very hands. Yesterday I felt I could just about walk on water and today I wonder who in the heck is sitting here in my place. The list of worries and doubts in my journal are laughable (from being a bad cousin to ‘WHY doesn’t the dog stop licking?’ to “Is my blog worthwhile?”). The whole thing makes my head hurt and extending love is the only (!) thing I can do. Why do I continue to fear letting go of doubt? I extend peace to these thoughts. I ask Holy Spirit for...
Read More3. Day 30: Veil Sale
Today is the last day of extending love to guilt for this month three of my Twelvemonth of Self Love project. What is exceedingly obvious now is that guilt is not the truth about me. It is but a story of “not-me” I believe for a while until I return to my right mind, or sanity or the awareness of God-is-Love’s Presence. I have learned I can drop the veil of guilt at any time and experience the truth of me in that moment by extending love to my thoughts and feelings even with, perhaps especially with, guilt. I can do this in bed, at the airport, washing dishes, taking a...
Read More3. Day 26: Love Meets Guilt Where It Is
My walk with extending love to guilt this month (in my Twelvemonth project) continues with spending each morning with Holy Spirit; sometimes asking difficult questions, other times just listening. Today, I feel like I am not making any inroads into understanding or lessening guilt. I am not as afraid of the guilt yet I still feel it easily and completely. Me: How can I ween myself from reliance on the framework of guilt? HS: Dearest One, You believe guilt is a giant structure upon which your life is built. Guilt is but a single thought in any given moment that prevents you from...
Read More2. Day 23: Change Is
Does everybody have cancer? You either have it yourself or someone close to you has it. I have a loved one battling today that invisible fear we call cancer. I noticed on Facebook and overheard grocery store and business conversations that so many are fighting this battle, this fear, this irrevocable change. Change in health, in prognosis for the future, in daily life. If we are all connected then why are we doing this to ourselves? We are afraid of change as much as anything. This is a core fear in depression too. Me: How can I be with all of this in peace? HS: Dearest One, know I...
Read More1. Day 12: Sneaky Thoughts Can Block Your Awareness to Love’s Presence
I am feeling less daunted by my commitment to this Twelvemonth practice of extending love to epic fears. I feel supported, guided and curious within myself about where we are going. In the beginning, when the idea was first forming I thought I knew where I would start (money, food, stress etc.) but when fear of commitment was suggested by Holy Spirit I knew this would be a journey for me instead of just by me. Yesterday I heard my commitment calling like a friend who wanted to play rather than a taskmaster who demanded perfection. I couldn’t help but join in the fun. If I think of 365...
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