2. Day 3: Who Me?
This is why I hate depression. It pushes people away. A friend is going through a heavy phase of something. It feels like depression from where I stand but really, what do I know? My friend does not want to connect at all. This is the crux of what gets me about being on the other side of depression. It hurts. It feels like a slap in the face. So, Holy Spirit, it doesn’t seem you would feel wounded, hurt, sad or annoyed now so this must be my fear talking. How can I see this in Love’s eyes? Or rather, let me see in Love what is the truth. Help me extend willingness, not-knowing and...
Read More1. Day 24: Rocking the Vastness
Today I am feeling the waffling of downsizing my commitment of a daily post: It is not needed. It will inundate my brother. I’m painting myself into a corner. Is this really fun? Why? HS: Why not? Me: Why not???? Exactly!! Why the heck NOT?! It won’t hurt, I write everyday anyway. An ambitious goal gets my juices flowing. I want to blow myself away in amazement. I want a searchable record. It IS fun! Oh Yeah! Now I remember!! Thanks! Just when I needed some encouragement for this epic commitment of a daily blog posting project this perfect quote appeared before my very eyes: “Your love...
Read More1. Day 23: Itching Relieves Tension
Today commitment is like the annoying itch I have at the moment. To be honest, I want more to know about the itching that I want to know about commitment. Me: What is this itching about? It comes replete with both full-on annoyance and delicious satisfaction. It keeps coming back, is this some form of self-medication? Please help me see here, thank you. HS: Your body continues to call out for care: movement, moisture, nourishment, stretch, openness and strength. Me: Honestly, I get tired of my body’s needs. How can I see this differently? Whoa! This thought just snuck into my...
Read More1. Day 18: Prayer & Intention
HS, please help me be aware and delight in all the help, support, information I might need in my twelvemonth.me project. Let this be fun, juicy and uplifting. I love the help from unexpected sources that comes to me. I am learning this technology of a new blog with ease and I am loving it. I actually enjoy the process of posting, maintaining and sharing my experience. Please guide me in this that I may always ask first so I share a full experience of you, of US. Thank you, amen. OH! I just realized my friend’s change of heart re helping me is a VOTE FOR MY VOICE. It is confirmation I...
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