1. Day 22: Fame Is a Flashlight
Weirdly I have discovered underneath my fear of commitment lies what I call a feeder-fear; this is a fear of fame. I know it sounds ridiculous because what are the odds of “fame” occurring because of what I write on a blog? Especially since I have yet to put any hustle into sharing the blog (I am leaving that totally up to my Holy Spirit btw). Fame is one way of putting being known for who and what you are or stand for. I guess I need to hear about fame because that is exactly what I asked. Me: These days people taste fame, at least for a moment, fairly easily and quickly with YouTube,...
Read More1. Day 21: Commitment, a Difference of Opinion
I spoke yesterday of the onslaught of experiences being sustained by my nearest and dearest. This gives me a perfect opportunity to extend love to my fear of commitment. Here is where commitment, in my opinion, goes awry. I am fully committed to my beloved partner of 30 plus years. I also am beginning to be fully committed to my own heart. So what happens when we see things differently and want to approach how to help someone in distress in totally different ways? Here is the very helpful answer from Holy Spirit, one that I will return to again and again when opinions differ amongst...
Read More1. Day 19: A Block to Love’s (& Commitment’s) Presence
In meditation I had this thought: The layered difficult circumstances that I thought were “why” I couldn’t express my Self (not the right time; someone will be upset/hurt; this is heresy; it’s not my place) I saw as a bulwark dam I had built to keep from expressing truth. Why did I do this to myself? HS: Dearest One, This is an experience you give yourself over and over again just to see how long you can stand it—like holding your breath under water as a child. Fear not the meaning. The world is made of this; experiments of experience and trial and error to see if it is possible to live...
Read More1. Day 17: Trusting My Inner Guidance
Me: How can I fully, or more fully, trust my own guidance, revelation and truth? HS: Dear One, This is the way. Right here. Right now. Notice. Allow. Listen. Trust is built of these things. Blind trust is a baby step, a tiny willingness to move into a situation without knowing the outcome. You are learning to trust with eyes fully open. Not-Knowing is not blind. Not-Knowing is willingness to see beyond what is known and move fully into the Love that you are. This is the Not-Known. You do not yet fathom who and what you are. YOU are the Not-Knowing. It is your not knowing...
Read More1. Day 15: Creation is a By-product of the Awareness of Love
What DO I really want? I want commitment to matter, to show, to have a purpose. I want it to lead to revelation or greater awareness to Love’s presence and a greater awareness of my own strength, holiness and delight. If I’m honest, I feel commitment will also lead to a created form, a body of work or experience that is useful, precious and lovingly beneficial to all. I need to extend love to not knowing if commitment serves a grander purpose or is going to be truly useful and beneficial: I extend transparency to this thought. HS: Precious One, As with all things, Love’s motive and...
Read More1. Day 14: Disappointment Veils the Truth
I have been waiting for this one. Today I got to experience disappointment. It is real in this moment. I was to have some technical and moral support in this Twelvemonth.me project from a trusted source who, in following her own guidance, lovingly backed out. So now I get to extend love to someone else’s lack of commitment. The irony is rich. Of course there really IS no one else. It is my own fear of keeping a commitment playing out for me. Even though I am dimly aware the disappointment lies within me, it is easier, safer for me to project it out in a weak form of blame, “Well,...
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