3. Day 15: A Drop In Love Pressure
What does guilt feel like, in my body? It feels metallic, like an acid bath; cold heat, systemic, down and up from center, pouring, searing a thudding FULL STOP. It feels like what I imagine a mild electrocution might feel like. Me: Holy Spirit, what is this and why does it act in this way? HS: Dearest One, this experience you have with guilt is visceral, though not universal. You feel and are aware of the feelings of fear acutely. This has been a gift you are now ready and willing to open. Many of your brothers must wait to notice fear after it has upset the balance in their outer...
Read More3. Day 8: Going Rogue: Should & Should Not
Holy Spirit continues remind me of the truth about me. As I was writing my last post I clicked a button and lost everything. Because I was in that beautiful space with Holy Spirit I really noticed how I wanted to beat myself up for this mistake and waste of my time but didn’t. I wanted to be annoyed and throw up my hands and say “Forget it!” but I did not. Something the HS had just said kept ringing true for me: Guilt is not the truth about you. This is music to my ears, Holy Spirit, play on! HS: Guilt is not the truth about you. Guilt is an effort to cover over...
Read More3. Day 7: Ancient Bank Account of Should
Am I the only one who is feeling the enormity of extending love to guilt? Where do I begin? how do I proceed? HS: Dearest One, Guilt is not nearly as complicated as you believe. Guilt is a long term, ancient bank account of should. You have been making deposits into this account from before your birth. Guilt firmly believes something should not happen or be: a crime, a thought, an omission, a presence, an amount, an event, a person, a race, a position. Both should NOT or should declare “This cannot be.” The truth is, it isn’t. All the terrible things you have done...
Read More3. Day 4: Innocence Awareness Training
I have been guided to undergo “Innocence Awareness Training” as a way of extending love to guilt and experiencing the daily truth of my innocence. Me: How can I experience my innocence daily? HS: Dearest One, Let us begin innocence awareness training this very day. Innocence does not flee from charges of guilt; there is no truth in them. Innocence does does not flee. Innocence remains fully present. Innocence is it’s own protection, power and truth. Me: But what if I choose to do something here that gets me into trouble? HS: Dear One, if you choose to get into...
Read More2. Day 30: The Jig Is Up
Depression has a very low opinion of everything and everyone. I know. The jig is up. This is a totally untrue statement. You knew from the very first moment you read it in the “21 Fear Salute” didn’t you? You were afraid to even allow this thought to exist so you closed yourself off from it; clamping down and closing your eyes. The thing is, this is how you forget your precious self. When you close your eyes to anything, you close your eyes to everything. 21. A very low opinion of everything and everyone. HS: Dearest One, Opinion is a small use of energy and...
Read More2. Day 26: No One Understands Me
Yesterday we practiced expanding the size of our seeing to notice when Wrong IS. Today let’s look at when we feel that wrongness in the way we are not being understood by others. Depression’s 21 fears must work very hard at covering over our awareness of Love’s Presence which is why it feels so exhausting. The fear of not being understood (and there’s no point of explaining myself) can be very limiting to your awareness of your own self. 17. Fear of not being understood (there is no point in explaining myself) It is time to extend love to this thought: I...
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