4. Day 28: Jealous? Who ME??
I had a dream a few nights ago that left me feeling feelings I rarely, if ever, notice experiencing. How can I let go of what I am not yet aware of? I dreamt a dear friend had published a book without telling me and I found out almost by accident as people were coming up to her and asking her to sign their books. I experienced real shock, jealousy and deep sense of outrage that this momentous thing had happened without me getting to be a part of any of it. This rather exposed my deepest desire to publish a book that I store neatly behind phrases like “Oh, if it happens that will...
Read More4. Day 10: An Unwillingness For Joy?
Yesterday I uncovered my unwillingness for joy. I still don’t know quite how this is happening so naturally I asked Holy Spirit to share more on this topic of joy and my [apparent] unwillingness for it. HS: Dearest One, You are unwilling for joy because you believe you are unworthy of this state. You cite other sadness and grief in the world as your reason to not fully in habit your joyous, joyful, joy abiding Self. Hear this and do not waiver. You are the joy that will allow, encourage, inspire and lead your brothers in this world back into the full realization and willingness of...
Read More3. Day 27: Guilt, The Greatest Call For Love
Me: Holy Spirit, what IS the purpose of guilt? HS: Precious One, The purpose of guilt is threefold: to close your eyes to grace to dampen your spirit to forget the truth Guilt uses all thinking to accomplish this; everything you have ever thought, done, not thought or not done. Guilt is the great God covering, making it appear you are separate from God. You don’t question it because you can see its’ effects in the world; even though there is great beauty so much is left undone, so much unfairness, so much pain and hurt. Guilt is NOT TRUE. Guilt is NOT TRUTH. Guilt is...
Read More3. Day 26: Love Meets Guilt Where It Is
My walk with extending love to guilt this month (in my Twelvemonth project) continues with spending each morning with Holy Spirit; sometimes asking difficult questions, other times just listening. Today, I feel like I am not making any inroads into understanding or lessening guilt. I am not as afraid of the guilt yet I still feel it easily and completely. Me: How can I ween myself from reliance on the framework of guilt? HS: Dearest One, You believe guilt is a giant structure upon which your life is built. Guilt is but a single thought in any given moment that prevents you from...
Read More3. Day 22: Ask Or Be-little?
I notice that still, in certain circumstances, I make myself less-than or highlight my fear qualities (including, perhaps especially with, guilt) in order to make another feel equal or safe. (Or am I making myself feel safe and equal???) Is this necessary? Is it meeting someone where they are or am I kidding myself? How do I remain true to Love’s Vastness and to my own local self and brother too? HS: Ask. Ask in the moment. Ask in quiet time. Ask your brother. Ask. Ask. Ask. ASK. When you feel this tendency to be-little yourself ask: “How can I remain whole...
Read More3. Day 17: Ready, Willing & Able
What is a practice I can do to let go of my attraction to guilt? How can I express harmlessness to my self? HS: Dearest One, You are doing this right now. Your continued willingness to ask and listen literally is creating pathways of open communication from Divine into current awareness in this visible world you see to be in. You have already begun to notice and be aware of a practice that will allow you to let go of the need for guilt. The practice of harmlessness to your body will bring your awareness alive on a cellular level. Your body lives to communicate my love for you; let it...
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