1. Day 13: Loving Circle of Care
Holy Spirit and I look in the mirror together: HS: Dearest One, I see a woman who has spent her whole life loving and caring for others; dolls, friends, teachers, parents, husband, children, members, clients and now is discovering that one person was left out of that loving circle of care. You, your Self, and I Am. Dearest One, you have done nothing wrong by caring for others or for forgetting your own dear Self. The real Beauty here is that you did hear your Self calling and you answered. This is where the real juice is for this is where memory and future become one, this is where the...
Read More1. Day 11: Be Soft with the Fear
Most days begin with my awareness of the thought “something is not quite perfect” or “I’m tired”. Usually their needs are obvious. This morning, however, I was confronted with unnamed fear and a feeling of lack of safety. Here is what Holy Spirit said: HS: Gently invite your fears to come and tell you what they most need you to know. All this timing is to be as it is. There is no need to force timing when your intention is already set. The intention creates the welcoming safety that will gently draw out your fears and concerns and unseen feelings. Sometimes when I am stuck I interview...
Read More1. Day 10: Commitment Speaks for Itself
Last night, I heard (ironically enough while I was cleaning my ear with a Q-tip) this: Let Commitment speak to you. I have quieted myself and relaxed into the place of the spacious Presence that loves me. I breathe and wait. HS: Dearest One, You are ready to hear the heart of commitment. The heart of commitment speaks for itself. I am closeness, stillness, and sureness wrapped into one powerful intention. I am wholly present in witness, breath and unfolding. I hold an every widening space for glory and wonder. Commitment is a joy of unspeakable power. Indeed, the universe experiences...
Read More1. Day 8: Willingness, A Force to Be Reckoned With
Here is what I hate about commitment. It feels forced, like the only way it will/can happen is if “I force myself against my will”. I don’t really believe this but there is background noise that seems to believe this in me. Me: What is it that feels like forcing? What am I doing to myself to feel this way? HS: Precious One, good morning my dear child, my own dear One. You still believe there is a FORCE other than you own. You believe there is Me and you. There is only One. Just as within you is every age you have been; the four year old accepting Christ, the nineteen year old...
Read More1. Day 6: Judgment Meets It’s Maker
I frequently begin a post with my thoughts, as that is how I live. As I am aware of my thoughts and how I relate to them so goes my day. How I relate to my thoughts produces my experience. So I extend space to my thoughts. I am afraid I will lose myself and not feel joy in the face of commitment. I love a fluid space in which to work, I instantly give myself rules and quotas and am hard and judgmental when I commit to a task, whether it is going to the gym, eating well or taking care of business. It is the powerful judgment that seems to arise in me I don’t like to feel, it makes me feel...
Read More1. Day 5: Me, Myself, & I
I am beginning to notice a pattern. Me in fear. Me in my right mind. Then deeper still Me in my Holiness (I still call this Holy Spirit because when I begin it still feels a l….o…..n…….g way away from who and where I am). 4am Me in fear: I feel nervous, excited and stupid (Why am I doing this to myself?) I fear the focus on fear. (What you focus on multiplies.) I am afraid of getting obsessive (Who me?). This must be why alcoholics avoid drink. Am I this way about work/a specific project? Do I obsess and abandon all Self in the ensuing crush of insanity? Is there something else...
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