4. Day 2: Room Assignments, Longmire & Shoes
I can’t seem to feel the letting-go energy without adding a final “d”–to feel letting God. I know I have been afraid to let go but right now as I feel into the the letting-go(d) I am relieved, delighted and exhilarated. Up until recently I know that I had to hang on tight: to what I know to be true, for safety and for certainty (a bird in hand). I just walked out in full forward motion to the back porch with tea and journal in hand and my tow caught the edge of the footrest and I nearly want a** over teacup. The blockage stopped and redirected this powerful...
Read More3. Day 27: Guilt, The Greatest Call For Love
Me: Holy Spirit, what IS the purpose of guilt? HS: Precious One, The purpose of guilt is threefold: to close your eyes to grace to dampen your spirit to forget the truth Guilt uses all thinking to accomplish this; everything you have ever thought, done, not thought or not done. Guilt is the great God covering, making it appear you are separate from God. You don’t question it because you can see its’ effects in the world; even though there is great beauty so much is left undone, so much unfairness, so much pain and hurt. Guilt is NOT TRUE. Guilt is NOT TRUTH. Guilt is...
Read More3. Day 19: M & M’s and Sunglasses!
We have had the most wonderful time in the last days and weeks celebrating our daughter’s graduation from university. Family and friends gathered in so many ways from so many places. We ate, drank and made merry in all the usual ways. I bought so many groceries that I was given honorary staff status at our local Bel Air and Whole Foods; candles were lit, pina colada’s mixed, laundry run, presents wrapped and even a lightening trip to Ashland, OR and Crater Lake National Park for our out-of-town visitors. We are great hosts. Still, guilt can raise its head inside me and say,...
Read More3. Day 4: Innocence Awareness Training
I have been guided to undergo “Innocence Awareness Training” as a way of extending love to guilt and experiencing the daily truth of my innocence. Me: How can I experience my innocence daily? HS: Dearest One, Let us begin innocence awareness training this very day. Innocence does not flee from charges of guilt; there is no truth in them. Innocence does does not flee. Innocence remains fully present. Innocence is it’s own protection, power and truth. Me: But what if I choose to do something here that gets me into trouble? HS: Dear One, if you choose to get into...
Read More2. Day 30: The Jig Is Up
Depression has a very low opinion of everything and everyone. I know. The jig is up. This is a totally untrue statement. You knew from the very first moment you read it in the “21 Fear Salute” didn’t you? You were afraid to even allow this thought to exist so you closed yourself off from it; clamping down and closing your eyes. The thing is, this is how you forget your precious self. When you close your eyes to anything, you close your eyes to everything. 21. A very low opinion of everything and everyone. HS: Dearest One, Opinion is a small use of energy and...
Read More2. Day 18: Eternity On A Spoon
Yesterday we looked at the fear of not being heard in the “21 Fear Salute”, today we get to the root of the problem which is the fear of listening. What if we do take the time to listen? What are we going to hear? This is the crux of depression. What if we stop noticing everything else but our own heart? It seems depression conspires to still everything around us, put it on mute for the purpose of listening. But what if I am afraid to even listen? 9. Fear of Listening Me: How do I extend love to the fear of listening? I am afraid of listening because I am afraid of...
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