8. Day 6: Where Peace & Calm Are Lounging
Yesterday was one of those days that you wonder how on earth you got there in the first place and how will you make it to the end of the day in a state of anything coming close to wholeness. We are flying to London in a week for an extended time of work, sabbatical and wonder. But first there is an important conference to attend in Los Angeles. What fertile ground for the practice of not-knowing. I faced yesterday in such a state of not-knowing (spilled over from the previous day of not-knowing) that I almost had to laugh as I looked at the day’s list which included changing dinner...
Read More8. Day 4: Not-Knowing IS….
I feel bubbly, jittery, nervous and swirly. The rapid staccato strobe light effect is like having my heart on speed boil. I need to express it all and just allow the flow so balance and peace may return to my awareness. I can barely calm down with all that is going on (of the happiest variety, flying to LA for a conference, prepping for our departure soon to UK, a wedding etc). Help and guide me into peace now. My walk helped tremendously. It allowed the nervous energy to move through me and left me open to hear the Holy Spirit. These thoughts came to me during the walk. HS:...
Read More8. Day 3: Let The Mystery Know You
I love a good mystery. Why is that so? If I fear not-knowing, why would I love mystery? What is it about mystery stories that makes us love them? 1. It will all work out in the end. 2. We know the actors (or characters) are not really dead, lost, hurt or betrayed. 3. We can feel the thrill of the fear, that frisson of anticipation and apprehension without taking it on as our own story, (Unless we do get so immersed in the thrill we forget that the story isn’t real and we are not in danger in any way.) This is actually one of the reasons you keep reading my blog–mystery. You...
Read More8. Day 2: The Little House In The Woods
Let’s get comfortable for a moment with not-knowing something. Think of something you don’t know (how a TV works or what is that fuzzy bit of lump in the bottom of your handbag or if your work is really satisfying) and just notice how you feel. Do you want to ferret around in your bag and get that thing OUT? Do you want to Google ‘TV’ and see if they can explain how the color dots fly through the air and into your set? Is you mind now wondering why you ever decided owning a business was a good idea? Or can you just be quiet and welcome not-knowing? Let’s do...
Read More8. Day 1: Not-Knowing Feels Vulnerable
After an epic month of honesty it is time for quiet of a different flavor. Now it is time to open up to a new month’s focus of extending love. What is coming to me is extending love to not-knowing. There are so many things (to infinity really) I don’t know. I strive, struggle, hope for, wheedle, beg, demand, need …….TO KNOW. I have always wanted to know ‘why’ and ‘how’ and ‘who’; I want to know what’s next, what’s for dinner and why does my toe itch? I am constantly in a state of negotiation with Knowing trying to...
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