10. Day 8 & 9: What Does Work Have To Do With It?
Ok. I admit it. It is kind of hard returning to work after being away for so long. Not hard in an impossible way but hard in a “I don’t actually remember how to” way. I literally do not quite remember how we fit so many things into a 24 hour period each day in the past. Even though we fit tons of cool things into each day (even including maintenance) on our adventure in England I can’t remember how to work, or even, if I am to be completely honest, what “work” even means. I can’t quite remember what my part is. It is almost like I am being...
Read More10. Day 7: Peace, Quiet & Jet Lag
Sometimes the infinite nature of Love feels scary. I am thrilled of course that Love is infinite, all powerful and ever present; ready, willing and able to be, forgive and comfort. But sometimes I need and want just the very teeniest of Love’s expressions; a look, stillness, a breath. The idea of BIG LOVE or even extending a quality of love can seem too much, overhwelming and not-enough all at the same time. This must be the time for utter stillness…..presence……….being……… I...
Read More10. Day 6: A Better Question
I noticed yesterday if I felt the feeling of fear (tightness, churlishness or emptiness) I immediately wanted to know “of what”, like I must have something I am afraid of or it is not justified. Perhaps a better question would be “What am I not loving?” instead of “What am I afraid of?” Right now I am not loving the possibility that we have forgotten important procedural information after not using it for so long. I am not loving that there is still a mess of books, postcards, gifts to mail, receipts etc. on the dining table. I am not loving that the...
Read More10. Day 5: Love Fear For Itself
Getting started with extending love to “fear itself” today and asked Holy Spirit where to start. HS: The best way way to deal with fear of fear itself is to love fear for itself and to let is guide you right back to your own loving heart. Notice and express the difficulty/ misstep/fear then be with it in awe and wonder. Extend a quality of love to this feeling of not-love. Me: Today I feel excited butterflies as we return to a work day. There is a feeling of resistance (“Oh, can’t I have one MORE day off…..”) and a feeling that wants to rush ahead (and...
Read More10. Day 4: Fear Of Fear Itself?
My daughter brought me to a standstill one day in London when I was saying that I was afraid of riding the incredibly long escalator in the Underground. She said “You are afraid. Full stop. You don’t need to add “of what”.” Oh. I always kind of thought the “of” rather justified and explained the fear. I suppose that it isn’t really necessary to define the how and why of the fear. A sense of fear is a coiling, blurring, resisting energy that blocks my awareness of Love’s Presence. It is the form that draws my attention. I have been...
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