1. Day 12: Sneaky Thoughts Can Block Your Awareness to Love’s Presence
I am feeling less daunted by my commitment to this Twelvemonth practice of extending love to epic fears. I feel supported, guided and curious within myself about where we are going. In the beginning, when the idea was first forming I thought I knew where I would start (money, food, stress etc.) but when fear of commitment was suggested by Holy Spirit I knew this would be a journey for me instead of just by me. Yesterday I heard my commitment calling like a friend who wanted to play rather than a taskmaster who demanded perfection. I couldn’t help but join in the fun. If I think of 365...
Read More1. Day 11: Be Soft with the Fear
Most days begin with my awareness of the thought “something is not quite perfect” or “I’m tired”. Usually their needs are obvious. This morning, however, I was confronted with unnamed fear and a feeling of lack of safety. Here is what Holy Spirit said: HS: Gently invite your fears to come and tell you what they most need you to know. All this timing is to be as it is. There is no need to force timing when your intention is already set. The intention creates the welcoming safety that will gently draw out your fears and concerns and unseen feelings. Sometimes when I am stuck I interview...
Read More1. Day 9: Extending Love to My Self
Today I am stuck in the sinking mire of doubt. I feel pulled down by a flattening energy drain. I extend optimism and light to this thought. I am willing to be free from “stuck” because I am willing to extend love in whatever form “stuck” needs until flow is reestablished. This writing and expressing my own holiness is not fearful, it is how many will awaken to their holiness within. The joy and wonder we each feel is multiplied exponentially in all. The Oneness is beginning to make sense. The Force of Willingness is no longer feared. I am light and free in my own body. I nourish myself...
Read More1. Day 6: Judgment Meets It’s Maker
I frequently begin a post with my thoughts, as that is how I live. As I am aware of my thoughts and how I relate to them so goes my day. How I relate to my thoughts produces my experience. So I extend space to my thoughts. I am afraid I will lose myself and not feel joy in the face of commitment. I love a fluid space in which to work, I instantly give myself rules and quotas and am hard and judgmental when I commit to a task, whether it is going to the gym, eating well or taking care of business. It is the powerful judgment that seems to arise in me I don’t like to feel, it makes me feel...
Read More1. Day 5: Me, Myself, & I
I am beginning to notice a pattern. Me in fear. Me in my right mind. Then deeper still Me in my Holiness (I still call this Holy Spirit because when I begin it still feels a l….o…..n…….g way away from who and where I am). 4am Me in fear: I feel nervous, excited and stupid (Why am I doing this to myself?) I fear the focus on fear. (What you focus on multiplies.) I am afraid of getting obsessive (Who me?). This must be why alcoholics avoid drink. Am I this way about work/a specific project? Do I obsess and abandon all Self in the ensuing crush of insanity? Is there something else...
Read More1. Day 4: BE JUICY EXPRESS LOVE
More thoughts re my fear of commitment: I’m afraid if I commit to a project and am successful, I might outshine another who needs success more than I. I’m afraid I haven’t thought of everything. I’m still counting on SOMEONE ELSE to give me the go ahead, the approval, the big thumbs up. Can I really, truly trust my OWN inner guidance on this blog? I don’t’ know where to write what, help, help, HELP, HELP!!!!!!!!!!! I need large chunks of time without appointment or plan. I love to soak in the holiness of my own heart. When I play the whirligig game of fast living the world insists on, I give...
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