6. Day 18: What Is Your Energy Saying To You?
I have felt subdued with my revelation about the devaluing way that I see. Crushed actually. It was painful to have the bandaid of working hard (to the point of exhaustion) ripped off to see the false seeing exposed underneath. I was moping when Holy Spirit’s voice came through in the bathroom (my favorite quick meditation getaway). HS: Devaluing is not actually changing value. This cannot be done. De-valuing is simply closing your eyes. Open your eyes darling to what is directly in front of you and give thanks. So what is directly in front of me. My husband receives a daily...
Read More6. Day 17: Holy Sh**, Am I Value-able?!!!
It is late (or early depending on how you look at it) and I cannot sleep. This thought keeps churning in my head like a dog that can’t find a comfortable spot on the blanket: “I am afraid of not working.” After getting up and finally looking at this thought (I extend noticing to this thought) the truer thought was revealed: “I am afraid of not creating value.” I want to always create value; in time, experience, object, design, moment and reason. I judge harshly something I see as lacking in value–either something I do/don’t do or something...
Read More6. Day 16: Can Joy Be My Guide?
The practice of noticing what I feel like in my body is quite interesting. I am beginning to see my body is shimmering with life and that noticing it actually shifts the energy somehow. The more I do this the more I feel like I am feeling into the feeling of joy. What does joy feel like? It feels just like this time of quiet to me. HS: Time to feel, notice, receive all the blessings that abound. No judgment, just acceptance, welcome, trust. Real delight is knowing THERE IS NOTHING WRONG. Ever. Spaciousness; feeling this in everything. There is room enough for all feelings, thoughts,...
Read More6. Day 15: Why I Love Mondays……
Would you believe that my revelation about me bringing the momentous, was, well, um…….momentous?! I know I could use another word (amazing, perspective shifting, huge) but I might as well stick with what I know. Here is the thing that is opening me up, I still tend toward the celebratory, the over the top and the colorful but as I spend more and more time with Holy Spirit I am beginning to sense the true Vastness of our being love. And that really is momentous on an infinite scale. I can see that rather than letting the moment be comfortable as it is in the vastness of love,...
Read More6. Day 14: I Am Momentous
Recently one of my daughters received some unexpected news. Not earth shattering, but life rearranging, tedious and upending nevertheless. I was ready at my post with more positive spin and cheer than with true being-in-the-moment-with-them. Of course I knew I had spoken the words that would least help when the response was a drooping, tight-lipped silence. Darn it. I really do want to be helpful, kind and present but somehow my response was received as brassy and too much. Later I was chided with these words: “Why do you always have to be so momentous!?!! Can’t I just be...
Read More6. Day 13: The Deep Upwelling
Yesterday I shared with you a practice by which you can feel the Holy Spirit within yourself. I thought I might share my own experience today so you know whatever you feel is ok. The first thing I felt this morning as I took time to feel into the Holy Spirit was my old friend resistance. Ugh. This is what resistance looks like for me: thoughts, thoughts and more thoughts. Some of the thoughts try to masquerade as useful or helpful like “What does it MEAN to feel the Holy Spirit?”, “You can’t feel anything, let alone the Holy One!”, “What if I feel...
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