1. Day 5: Me, Myself, & I
I am beginning to notice a pattern. Me in fear. Me in my right mind. Then deeper still Me in my Holiness (I still call this Holy Spirit because when I begin it still feels a l….o…..n…….g way away from who and where I am). 4am Me in fear: I feel nervous, excited and stupid (Why am I doing this to myself?) I fear the focus on fear. (What you focus on multiplies.) I am afraid of getting obsessive (Who me?). This must be why alcoholics avoid drink. Am I this way about work/a specific project? Do I obsess and abandon all Self in the ensuing crush of insanity? Is there something else...
Read More1. Day 3: Extending Love to My Thoughts
Before I begin in earnest I want to share briefly what my practice of extending love to my thoughts looks like. I learned how to extend love to my thoughts when I became an ordained Voice for Love minister. Essentially this is a practice of stillness and noticing my thoughts without judgment then simply extending a color or facet of love to the thoughts that I notice. The big AHA for me was thinking about Love in terms of qualities, colors or facets (kindness, acceptance, stillness; pouring out light as if it were honey; welcoming my thoughts with a hug or a deep bow). I knew that I...
Read More1. Day 1: A Twelvemonth of Self Love
Getting Started. I have been guided to write and experience 12 months of extending love to my deepest fears, my nemeses in fact. The ones I really don’t want to look at unless forced (usually at the hands of the unexpected or an emergency). These are my thoughts I am aware of at the moment: Why wouldn’t I want to do this? What is this feeling I’m feeling right now? Doomed to failure. Flash in the pan. No stick-to-it-iveness. Lazy. It’s hard and not worth the effort. I don’t have to. I don’t know how. A commitment to work traps you (& those around you). Could love really make a...
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