1. Day 29: Being Here Now
I continue to feel the tidal pull between business, my spiritual practice of my commitment to extending love to my fears and wanting to be with family. The pull of the actions commitment seems to require is great. It is hard to sit still and meditate or BE in the face of commitment (even if it is a commitment to facing my fear and blogging about it). I must not really understand commitment or what is going on inside me. Please show me the way to peace and joy AND commitment, it must be possible. Thank you. Me: I feel the tidal pull of activities swirling around me and this feels...
Read More1. Day 26: The Unfolding of Joy
I am feeling slow-ish and tired (headache too) from last days of frenetic activity. I have so much to do before tomorrow……… “I Am Here Now” Quiet Blanket Tea Candle Clock-tick Heartbeat Breath Comfort Uninterrupted Peace I noticed in the whirl of yesterday that fear of commitment without the fear is just commitment. Me: Why have I feared commitment in work (especially) for so long? HS: Because your fear kept you from remembering your heart, your Self. As soon as this happens all is fraught with struggle and backwards thinking. You have always thought you should be able to see the...
Read More1. Day 25: Love Is Vast Enough
I am feeling a little (actually A LOT) cornered by time. My week is full. Help! This thought, a benediction from my heart revives me: Love is vast enough to hold all my time, appointments, plans and schedule. This bears repeating. Every five minutes if needed: LOVE IS VAST ENOUGH (Love Is –inhale….Vast Enough–exhale x repeat as needed) Me: What do I need right now? I feel ever so slightly fidgety and rushed. This is the part of commitment I question; it takes up a lot of space and energy. Here I am, in my quiet time, and thoughts, ideas, ponderings keep popping...
Read More1. Day 24: Rocking the Vastness
Today I am feeling the waffling of downsizing my commitment of a daily post: It is not needed. It will inundate my brother. I’m painting myself into a corner. Is this really fun? Why? HS: Why not? Me: Why not???? Exactly!! Why the heck NOT?! It won’t hurt, I write everyday anyway. An ambitious goal gets my juices flowing. I want to blow myself away in amazement. I want a searchable record. It IS fun! Oh Yeah! Now I remember!! Thanks! Just when I needed some encouragement for this epic commitment of a daily blog posting project this perfect quote appeared before my very eyes: “Your love...
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