12. Day 4: A Sensitive Issue
Extending love to feeling and feelings is a departure for me. Sure, I can extend love to thoughts all day long. Even though thoughts in this case are everything I am aware of. See, that’s the thing. I am not really aware of my feelings. I am aware of sadness, happiness, despair and crossness but feeling those things is different. I have trained myself (not very well actually) to ignore my own feelings because I have also trained myself to be acutely aware of other people’s feelings. When my daughter was ill several years ago she would put her head against mine and say...
Read More12. Day 3: Feeling; The Divine Mother Lode
Holy Friend, Thank you for this time, this morning. Help me hear and abide in that place of quiet where words are not needed for feeling communicates as completely (if not more so). I am able to go within and know your Voice, hear guidance, truth and get clarity. But perhaps there is a deeper place of the abundance that Love is that can only be accessed and inhabited with the thing we call feeling. Help me develop this muscle or become at one with this depth. I don’t even really know what to ask for. I will trust that you will show me the way. You know my life, household, dreams...
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Here are some hard truths I am learning about what I think about feelings. (I notice I am still thinking about them rather than feeling them but I have to start somewhere.) I was a little surprised as I thought I would describe myself as emotional; I cry when certain ads come on, I respond with laughter or tears as is called for, I have been told (by my Mother when I was little) that I wear my feelings on my sleeve. So to look again and see I have a rather low opinion of feelings is a bit startling. The thoughts in no particular order: 1. There is not enough time to feel feelings 2....
Read More12. Day 1: Feelings: Black Hole Or Morning Star?
“I don’t know what to think about my feelings.” I said “Maybe that’s the problem. Thinking about them instead of feeling them.” she said. I was caught out the other day when I was experiencing nausea, headache and weepiness and discovered it was but a call for attendance and expression by some unacknowledged feelings. It made me wonder what else might be lurking inside, desperate for acknowledgement, welcome and expression. I have centered my practice on the premise that Love IS enough. Love is who I am and loving is what I do. In extending love to...
Read More11. Day 28: Success Is Always An Option
I must admit, here at the end of the month of extending love to the fear of success that I have little to report except the obvious. Failure is never final. Success is ALWAYS an option. I know. You already knew that. It’s like saying the Crown Jewels are breathtaking. But why?? Why is success always an option? There are times that failure is death or catastrophic mess or pain, what then? The thing I have learned about success by uncovering my eyes and looking at it is that success is. Success is just like Love is or God is or I am. Success is a part of me, of life, of this...
Read More11. Day 27: Feelings Communicate; Are You Listening?
Yesterday was a day of feeling. Or rather trying to keep down feelings like someone on board a boat tries to keep lunch down while coursing over the heavy chop. The feelings leak out of course as eventually lunch does when seasickness overtakes. It is inconvenient, messy and leaves you feeling drained. Perhaps that is the true purpose of feelings, to drain you of what is not you until all that is left is your true self. I have one friend who I have known since high school, only just now coming to consciousness after four days post an unscheduled heart bypass surgery. At the same time my...
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