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A Mantra for One
My commitment to daily Twelvemonth postings concluded in April of this year and, not surprisingly, life has continued unabated to the point that I look back in utter wonder at my accomplishment of 365 days of daily blog postings. Here is what I am learning about myself three months out since that mammoth commitment of extending love to my fears, my self and my experience and blogging about this daily: Fears continue (as do occasional overwhelm, crossness & self-forgetting) but it is so much easier to recognize them so I can immediately...
read moreForgive My Self-Forgetting….
It has been three months since my last confession……..umm, I mean blog post. I have been feeling rather drab the last few days. Unseemly, unsettled, unfocused and uninspired. Naturally I drenched myself in a series of gratitudes. The list at first feels dry, forced, even fake but by the “fourth thank you for_______” I can’t hep but notice I am surrounded by blessing of every fashion. In this place of evening gratitude I open my NTI to this very perfect quote: “Everything that you see, and the way in which you see...
read moreThe Self Discipline of Desire
I was speaking to a friend recently who praised the self discipline of my having blogged daily for a year. I was a bit taken aback as it didn’t feel like self discipline at all. I write and extend love to my thoughts because I want to. Afterwards, this phrase floated into view: the self discipline of desire. I took it into my quiet time this morning to ask Holy Spirit more about this. Me: Holy Spirit, please tell me more about this “self discipline of desire”. What does it mean and how does it enrich my path and...
read moreBut Not Without Self Love
It is dawning on me now, that self love is the big leagues in the game of Life and Love. We can love our children, our neighbor, the flag, our country, our spouse, our house. We can love chocolate, green grass, cherry pie, clean sheets and of course our dogs and cats (and gerbils, elephants and the snake that kitty keeps bringing into the house). But without self love the circle is not yet complete. As I looked back on this amazing year of extending love to my fears (and thoughts, feelings and just about everything else) these truths about...
read more12. Day 31: Letter To My (Beloved) Readers
Dear Ones, Thank you so much for going on this Twelvemonth journey with me. It made a difference, a REAL difference to me, to my heart, to my awareness and to my walk with Holy Spirit in this wild and wooly world. I have honestly loved every post, journal entry and quiet time I have devoted to extending love to my epic fears. And do you know what? It wasn’t nearly as fearful as I thought it would be, especially as I had YOU with me. To know that someone was reading, digesting, being inspired by either my words or even just the many...
read more12. Day 30: Joy, It Takes A Little Longer
“Today is a stepping stone in the discovery of who I am and what brings me joy.”——March 30 (from my daily affirmations calendar from Louise Hay, given to each of us at the Writers Conference last week). This quote is perfect for me as I finish up my Twelvemonth and actually not a bad way to look at each and every day now that I think about it. How lovely would it be to look at each new day, no matter what was on your calendar or on your to-do list, as a stepping stone in the discovery of who you are? If that is my...
read more12. Day 29: Witness The Dawn
I can feel the realigning of focus within me. I don’t yet really know what my writing and practice will look like on a daily basis but I feel excited rather than worried; delighted rather than fearful. This is a huge shift from last year at this time when I was feeling the uncertainty of transition and my committed practice of self love and blog felt like such a crazy leap in the dark. I mean, practicing self love is scary at the best of times but doing it right out in the open was unprecedented. I leapt but was, quite frankly,...
read more12. Day 28: Twelve Fears Later…
It is time to talk about my thoughts and feelings of having blogged daily for a whole year (that’s 365 days!). Yes, I officially made my first blog post on March 25, 2014 (in the middle of a trip to my nephew’s wedding in Nashville). Extending love to my epic fears is something I could have done privately without the added work of cataloguing my experience. I could have just felt the difference but, then, would I have remembered the process? What if I needed to do it again? What if you wanted to follow along and do this for...
read more12. Day 27: 5 Things To Do When You Experience Spirit-lag
Have you ever noticed this jet laggy sort of experience that happens between when you pray (or ask or set an intention or surrender) and when you feel or see the answer? I’d call it Spirit-lag but somehow that makes it sound like Spirit is lagging behind me, late or otherwise occupied when it is most likely me who is late or otherwise occupied. In the geological sense Spirit IS instantaneous, but I am looking through a microscopic tolerance of light. I make myself laugh sometimes that when I actually manage to remember to ASK within,...
read more12. Day 26: Raw [Spiritual] Food
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I have been practicing extending love to my epic fears and writing about my experiences for nearly one year in A Twelvemonth of Self Love (twelve months & 362 posts) and still I must choose love as my operating system instead of fear. I must actually, consciously choose love. Why isn’t it completely automatic? Why do fears still arise? Fear must be a wake up call, a rubber band around my wrist I flick to remind me to love and a deeply embedded melody I need to follow no matter what. Love is what I need to live, breath, continue...
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