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3. Day 16: All Aspects Of Love Are Needed
Yesterday we talked about what guilt felt like. I want to know now, how to greet this fear in love? Where do I even start? HS: As always dear One, start where you are. Extend a quality or flavor of love to your body, your feelings, the moment. Notice if your feelings or thoughts can be clarified or do they remain wordless or nebulous. All this really does is give you time, awareness and willingness with your Self. This Self is you; your heart, will and desire. You have concocted quite a story of not-self and somewhere along the live...
read more3. Day 15: A Drop In Love Pressure
What does guilt feel like, in my body? It feels metallic, like an acid bath; cold heat, systemic, down and up from center, pouring, searing a thudding FULL STOP. It feels like what I imagine a mild electrocution might feel like. Me: Holy Spirit, what is this and why does it act in this way? HS: Dearest One, this experience you have with guilt is visceral, though not universal. You feel and are aware of the feelings of fear acutely. This has been a gift you are now ready and willing to open. Many of your brothers must wait to notice...
read more3. Day 14: The Story of Princess Precious
Once upon a time, there was a little girl who loved adventure. She was not content to sit and play with dolls. She’d rather climb out of her window and see what there was to see in the world. She needed to experience everything; speed, stillness, emptiness, chock-a-block fullness, delight, misery, lost and found. She didn’t want someone to tell her a story she wanted to LIVE the story. And so she did. She grew up as little girls do in the shadow of her beloved family where she played and worked and gathered and found...
read more3. Day 13: Fear As A Teacher
Here is the wonderful quote from Bartholomew on fear I promised yesterday. Really let this sink in. Allow the “bigness” of it to make itself comfortable in between your cells and thoughts. Receive it as from your own heart. “Fear is an energy that can be your teacher if you have the willingness to face it. Fear is power. It is an energy that is easily felt. It is a part of the life-cycle. When fear is with you can train yourself to say “My friend! You are here! I remember you well. You have come to tell me...
read more3. Day 12: Can God Change Channels?
I am loving the bounty being showered upon me with this extending love to my epic fears project (which has become my daily practice). My friend Bartholomew, who I would describe as another voice and flavor of Love has written the most beautiful and perfect piece on fear which I will share below. I want to add a few thoughts (please feel free to extend love to this thought if it is shocking or frightening in any way) about what is sometimes called channeled writing or speaking. In the past 30 or so years there have been quite a number of...
read more3. Day 11: Holy Spirit Makes Lemonade
Hello guilt. I am feeling you now. I missed a family graduation and it is doing me in. I gave a gift and said bravo and much happiness etc but I am not there. I didn’t send flowers (or balloons or organized a mariachi band). We have been there for other events and I feel wretched for missing this one. I absolutely should DO/BE more. Ugh. I hate feeling less than whole. It seems there is no tad or taste or bit of guilt; a little guilt sours the whole. Me: How can I deal with feelings of not good enough? HS: Enough is good....
read more3. Day 10: A Wellspring of Energy
To my constant feeling of “I should be more, do more, & have fun every moment” self: I extend GRATITUDE to this self. HS: Dearest One, This is a wellspring of universal energy not a guilt trip. The reminder of the infinite power of love that you are is your take-away, not that you are NOT love enough. Guilt was designed as a reminder of your value, worth and nature of love, for when you experience guilt and feel a less-than-ness you simply stop and remember you are enough. Let guilt remind you of only this: you are...
read more3. Day 9: The Guilt of Busyness or the Busyness of Guilt?
The busyness that is often my life has been on full tilt and today I can barely believe I have time to sit and write. So, I will do what I often do when inundated with life: Give Thanks. I am so grateful I have loving family who cares enough to drop everything and come to celebrate with us. I am delighted that my daughter is soon to be a graduate of UC Davis. I am thankful for our home, transportations, friends coming together to celebrate with us and for those who can’t make the trip but are sending much love and applause. I am...
read more3. Day 8: Going Rogue: Should & Should Not
Holy Spirit continues remind me of the truth about me. As I was writing my last post I clicked a button and lost everything. Because I was in that beautiful space with Holy Spirit I really noticed how I wanted to beat myself up for this mistake and waste of my time but didn’t. I wanted to be annoyed and throw up my hands and say “Forget it!” but I did not. Something the HS had just said kept ringing true for me: Guilt is not the truth about you. This is music to my ears, Holy Spirit, play on! HS: Guilt is not the...
read more3. Day 7: Ancient Bank Account of Should
Am I the only one who is feeling the enormity of extending love to guilt? Where do I begin? how do I proceed? HS: Dearest One, Guilt is not nearly as complicated as you believe. Guilt is a long term, ancient bank account of should. You have been making deposits into this account from before your birth. Guilt firmly believes something should not happen or be: a crime, a thought, an omission, a presence, an amount, an event, a person, a race, a position. Both should NOT or should declare “This cannot be.” The truth is, it...
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