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4. Day 6: Breath Takes A Holiday
My family recently travelled to Ashland, OR and to Crater Lake National Park. This was a brief but chock-a-block full two days which included: lunch in Shasta City, photo op & tee shirt purchases in Weed, CA (how could you not stop and get a picture of that sign?), Klamath River, Oregon boarder celebration (my step mother’s 50th State on her bucket list of all fifty states! Woo hoo!!!), tea & cookies at hotel, dinner at Larks, a brilliant all female production of Two Gentlemen of Verona (at Ashland’s famous Shakespeare...
read more4. Day 5: Full Disclosure
I keep being shown over and over again just how much I HANG ON to everything; thoughts, habits, clothes, email, paperwork etc. Letting go sounds easy, like how hard would it be to let go of one thing each day? I am telling you this now. It makes me feel vulnerable, unprepared, lackadaisical, and like I am cheating somehow. It also feels really good. Yikes! How can these two groups of feeling integrate? I guess this is what my month of extending love to letting go is all about. I want to explain briefly how I do this blog. I have...
read more4. Day 4: Not Even Fourth Nature
I have to admit that letting go is not second (or third or fourth) nature to me. I feel like there is a tense energy that wants to ball up like a fist in me; it wants to strike out and see things it wants to be different and fix/change them. I feel this fist in my head and gut. So it is a good thing I am practicing extending love to my fear of letting go. I need to let go I just don’t know how. I extend awareness to this thought. Somehow just (!) being aware of this tight fist of hanging on to wanting things to be different allows...
read more4. Day 3: Letting Go Is A Gift
When I am in a hurry, or tired or just plain curious. I will ask Holy Spirit a question and then just flip open a sacred text or favorite spiritual tome to see if a perspective or deepening opens up in me. (To be honest this works even when I use the comics because the power is in the asking and the noticing.) I asked Holy Spirit to share what the letting go energy was and how I can use/see it and this passage in NTI leapt out at me: “Look upon your gift and rejoice. It is an expression given by you. Its’ purpose is your own...
read more4. Day 2: Room Assignments, Longmire & Shoes
I can’t seem to feel the letting-go energy without adding a final “d”–to feel letting God. I know I have been afraid to let go but right now as I feel into the the letting-go(d) I am relieved, delighted and exhilarated. Up until recently I know that I had to hang on tight: to what I know to be true, for safety and for certainty (a bird in hand). I just walked out in full forward motion to the back porch with tea and journal in hand and my tow caught the edge of the footrest and I nearly want a** over teacup. The...
read more4. Day 1: Letting Go Of Velociraptors Is Easy
Letting go of velociraptors is easy; letting go of fear (and your favorite pair of pj’s) is hard. Or so I thought. I have noticed over the month (of extending love to guilt) I have been feeling a growing letting go energy. It feels like a flow of spaciousness that just IS. I noticed it first when talking to my daughter about wanting to get a new sofa and dining chairs. I am realizing I am ready to let go all kinds of stuff that I have previously clung too as my life and identity. I asked Holy Spirit how I can remain open to this...
read more3. Day 30: Veil Sale
Today is the last day of extending love to guilt for this month three of my Twelvemonth of Self Love project. What is exceedingly obvious now is that guilt is not the truth about me. It is but a story of “not-me” I believe for a while until I return to my right mind, or sanity or the awareness of God-is-Love’s Presence. I have learned I can drop the veil of guilt at any time and experience the truth of me in that moment by extending love to my thoughts and feelings even with, perhaps especially with, guilt. I can do this...
read more3. Day 29: Sunday Meditation
Thank you for the delicious meditation this morning. Thank you especially for this thought: What if I remembered ONLY myself? In that moment, all my thoughts, plans, roles, identities neatly fell away as I simply was in peace, tranquility, quiet, gentle joy and wholeness. Thank you so much for this! I feel restored, refreshed and re-JOYed. The absence of guilt reveals the Presence of Love: whole, clean, empty yet fulfilled precious, tender, comfort-able willing to be yesterday, today and forever certain of holiness and truth open,...
read more3. Day 28: Verzeiung (Forgiveness) & Communion
The amazing book “The Book Thief” (by Markus Zusak) came to me during this month of extending love to guilt. Surely this is no accident and indeed a novel of the tenacity of loving in all conditions, especially with the incarcerating power of guilt. The story is narrated by Death and told through the eyes of a young girl in Nazi Germany. It is powerful in every way. I must share these definitions that leapt out at me: “Verzeiung–Forgiveness: to stop feeling anger, animosity or resentment. Related words:...
read more3. Day 27: Guilt, The Greatest Call For Love
Me: Holy Spirit, what IS the purpose of guilt? HS: Precious One, The purpose of guilt is threefold: to close your eyes to grace to dampen your spirit to forget the truth Guilt uses all thinking to accomplish this; everything you have ever thought, done, not thought or not done. Guilt is the great God covering, making it appear you are separate from God. You don’t question it because you can see its’ effects in the world; even though there is great beauty so much is left undone, so much unfairness, so much pain and hurt....
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