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7. Day 15: I’ll Be Honest With You
I feel a withdrawing sadness/what’s the point energy today (maybe for a few days?). I would toss it off as tiredness, but it feels both deeper and more on the surface than usual. I can’t tell if it is overcommitment or being dishonest in making the commitments in the first place. Or is it that deeper churn of my own children entering new phases in their young adult lives that I can only watch and welcome whatever I am feeling within myself? Me: Please help me extend the tenderest love and awareness even as I ask for guidance....
read more7. Day 14: When Extending Love Is Impossible
I am beginning to wish I had not listened to the Holy Spirit and chosen extending love to my fear of honesty. And I certainly wish I hadn’t told anybody. I am in a funk today for no apparent reason. I could call up a few reasons and try to make those stories the “why” of my funk but that feels less than honest (again I say damned honesty). I just woke up with a great sense of heaviness on my chest, a tightly-wound, imploding sort of energy. It feels like a personal version of a black hole. And nothing untoward has...
read more7. Day 13: Turning Fear Into Honey Spoons
It’s Monday. Speaking of pain….. why do we think pain in the only way to learn? Why the phrase “No pain/No gain”? Why did my grandmother say when brushing my hair and I winced, “You have to suffer to be beautiful!”? It is because we truly believe we must go through pain in order to feel, connect with and experience God. I do not believe this is something God requires. God can absolutely turn suffering into revelation and fear into honey spoons but do we really believe God desires us to suffer in order...
read more7. Day 12: And On The Seventh Day….
Sunday has long been considered a day of rest. In the Bible even God rested on the seventh day of creation. Why is it so difficult to allow rest? To feel worthy of complete rest. Or any rest? Why, if something is easier than we thought, do we find ways to either make it more difficult or explain away the ease? Have you noticed how ill at ease we are with, well, ease? In my month of extending love to fear AS tiredness I really noticed some of the ways I block the awareness of Love’s Presence is to busy/overwhelm/over do myself. I...
read more7. Day 11: Running From Pain?
Are you running from pain? Am I?? I can say that in this moment, right now, I am not running. Though, to be honest (and since honesty IS what I am practicing this month), running from pain was the most exersize I ever got before I started walking daily. I used to call it good manners, or staying positive, or feeling overwhelmed but running from is another way of saying denying/ignoring/ trying to change what is in front of me. Honesty is really shaking me up. Everything can do with an honesty make-over. How I eat/drink/ sleep/ speak/...
read more7. Day 10: The Being Well
My own sense of WELL-BEING comes from drinking deeply and diving into the BEING WELL. When I am down, tired, fractious or just feeling less-than in any way. I must go within and extend the love that I am. I can go to that well of love that I am and drink deeply. I can breathe deeply and dive in fully. This is my restoration and reminder. This is truly who and what I am. Any kindness I have every offered, any comfort, help or appreciation IS the voice of love speaking from my heart. I just need to return again and again to my heart,...
read more7. Day 9: Feelworthy
In light of some recent intense events I found myself needing a word that I couldn’t find. A word that could describe what was happening and what I was feeling about what was happening. The word that arrived fully formed was: FEELWORTHY (adj)–something (an event, person, experience) worthy of all the feelings I am having; having a right to have all the feelings present; all that I am feeling NOW ex: “This departure is feelworthy.” In a matter of days just over a week ago several BIG things happens all close...
read more7. Day 8: Telling The Truth
Soon after asking my self what my blog was really about, I received this beautiful note from a dear friend. It was so an answer to my heart’s question I have to reprint as written. I recognized the Voice of Love instantly. (the quote by Neale Donald Walsch was perfect as he is one of the first authors I ever read who shared God’s voice so directly) “Good Morning, Your blog is all about telling the truth and being fearless in the expression of the truth of your being…love. Blessings on your way to being fearless in...
read more7. Day 7: Happy Birthday To Me!
You know the coolest thing about birthdays? They are a great way to take an honesty break and really notice your life. I can acknowledge where I am and what I am doing. I can notice what I love (or don’t love) in my life. I love birthdays (of course;) for many reasons but one of the best things is that past/present/future game we get to play. For instance, for my 18th birthday my brother was in the hospital with nearly fatal appendicitis. My parents and I (mostly my parents as I was still in school) did not leave his side. My...
read more7. Day 6: 100 Ways To Know Honesty
I am loving all that honesty has to give. Since I have noticed I am fearful of honesty in many ways I wanted to know how I can be with/ practice/ encourage honesty in myself. So I asked Holy Spirit for ways I can come to know honesty as a quality of love. After this list, I really do want to know honesty. In all things. This honesty, I can trust, allow and welcome. 100 Ways To Know Honesty As A Quality Of Love Listen Don’t interrupt Trust the moment Notice my heart beat Extend trust to being honest Practice to taking time...
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