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8. Day 14: Why Takes A Holiday
I need to know why. Why??!!! My husband asks “How?” Together we want to know. And this is the month of extending love to Not-Knowing. How perfect is it then that we get to be in a brand new, yet ancient place. We have now arrived in London and woken to rain. Rain, alone, washed away my usual need to know “why?” Coming from such drought in California it is such a glorious gift and joy just to see gray skies and hear the rain drops steadily on the roof I am deliciously immersed in the present moment. I think,...
read more8. Day 13: Dread Locks Open To Holiness
I have woken with a feeling of compressing, heavy tightness in my chest, I feel like a black hole is forming in my chest and it is so dense it could drag all of me in. I don’t necessarily feel fear but……..what? Anxiety? Exhaustion? Would’ve/should’ve/could’ve? Worthlessness? Fake/phony? I am dreading that our trip could not possibly be all that I hope it to be. Maybe that is the feeling, dread. Oh. Ok, what is this feeling HS? Help me to extend love right here, right now. Thank you. I extend...
read more8. Day 12: Going With God
I love airports. They are such a picture of an in-between world. All who come are welcome. Thousands of strangers rub shoulders and glances and kindness and annoyance on their way to somewhere else. I love it because when I have finally made it to the airport I know I am on my way. This is not to be confused with having arrived. An interesting distinction. I am, indeed, on my way to feeling less fearful of Not-Knowing but I have not arrived. Right now, as the hours and minutes tick down to our boarding the plane I am experiencing...
read more8. Day 11: The Answers Will Find You
Today is my last day in country before embarking on a sabbatical and work trip to England with my husband. This trip came about in the usual way with an idea, an opportunity and a great leap into the infinite Not-Knowing. The trip itself is not so unusual. Traveling overseas gets easier and easier with technology allowing best price and a buffet of choices. What is different, nay, almost unheard of, is that we will be gone for nearly two months. This time will be punctuated with networking and business opportunities but what I am most...
read more8. Day 10: Begin Practicing Clarity
Yesterday was so full I did not have time to sit quietly with you. What message do you have for me today? Speaking of Not-Knowing………I have questions of creation I want to surrender to All-Love. Can I share my blog further afield? Is it valuable to others? Can I publish in new and bigger ways and still remain in peace and joy? HS: Clarity is not at the expense of peace and joy. One quality of love does not preclude another. You are asking for clarity. Begin practicing clarity. Ask for clarity then follow the...
read more8. Day 9: This Energy Of Falseness
It is funny that I am hoping to know Not-Knowing. But maybe something else is happening. There is a merging on the horizon and I am determined to both see wholeness here and experience it within my self. Holy Spirit continues: HS: Not-Knowing is friend and place. Being and doing. Knowing and not-knowing. Not-Knowing acts as an instant meditation, if you allow the release of you fears of Not-Knowing. It is time to understand fear. You still think you are afraid OF something. Fear is but one thing. Refusing to be here in this moment...
read more8. Day 8: The Knowing Of Creation
I continue to ask Holy Spirit for insight and willingness to be with Not-Knowing without agenda. HS: Relax into Not-Knowing. The knowing of creation will come at exactly the perfect time. In every case there will be, is, and was everything you need at hand. Nothing is left to chance. Not-Knowing is not chance or random or a roll of the dice. Not-Knowing is from which all is chosen, created, extended and delighted in. Fear not this vastness–it is not a place, a moment or a decision–it is the stuff of ALL-IS. The more...
read more8. Day 7: A Deep Clear Inbreath of God
I am trying not to see my earache as a metaphor of my unwillingness not to hear the truth re Not-Knowing, but it is almost impossible not to. What is new for me is to “stay with” my earache in tenderness, welcome and care rather than “What the heck can I do to get rid of this??!!” I will bet that my earache will last as long as it lasts regardless and I have before me the continual choice to delight in this or suffer in this. Honestly (and when I say that I mean it deeply having spent a month co-habitating with...
read more8. Day 6: Where Peace & Calm Are Lounging
Yesterday was one of those days that you wonder how on earth you got there in the first place and how will you make it to the end of the day in a state of anything coming close to wholeness. We are flying to London in a week for an extended time of work, sabbatical and wonder. But first there is an important conference to attend in Los Angeles. What fertile ground for the practice of not-knowing. I faced yesterday in such a state of not-knowing (spilled over from the previous day of not-knowing) that I almost had to laugh as I looked at...
read more8. Day 5: 100 Reasons Not-Knowing Is My Friend
Dearest Holy Spirit, please open my heart and mind to the ways to practice extending love and being in the not-knowing without fear. Help me to see this as Friend. (Holy Spirit loves speaking to me in lists) 100 Reasons Why Not-Knowing Is My Friend I don’t know everything I can rest in that acknowledgment I don’t have to know everything I don’t have to find somebody else who does know I can be at peace while not-knowing therefore not-knowing cannot hurt me Not-knowing releases me from specific outcomes Not-knowing is a store of all...
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