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10. Day 14: A Year Without Fear
One of my finds of the new year is a wonderful book called “A Year Without Fear” by Tama Kieves. Ms. Kieves has been a favorite author of mine for years ever since I read her first book “This Time I Dance” her story of going to Harvard Law School, graduating with honors and ultimately leaving her law practice to pursue the desires of her heart. Naturally I was mesmerized. Her newest book, “A Year Without Fear” is not unlike my blog. It is a daily dose of love and fearlessness to remind you that you are...
read more10 Day 13: 100 Reasons Why Debt Is My Friend
Just the word debt makes me shrink and tighten. I get internally what a teenage friend of my girls’ once called “sphincter face”. You know, the face you make when you see one of those terrible accidents unfolding on a You Tube video or when you take a big bite out of a lemon. This is the epitome of tighten, resist and STOP the flow (of thought, or feeling, of life). As this blog and my year of Twelvemonth of Self Love is all about extending love to my thoughts I was shown yesterday that I have a whopping area that I...
read more10. Day 12: Let Debt Inspire
This morning I woke up with fear itself sitting on my chest, whispering in my ear “It’s time to pay the Piper”. I listened for awhile, hanging my head in agreement, thinking this amounted to extending love and being with but I still felt hounded, a little breathless and a tad guilty. I mean I did just declare by my very actions that it is AOK to take off on a trip for seven weeks to do business certainly but there was a lot of eating, drinking and making merry. I should pay for this, right? I certainly should pay my...
read more10. Day 11: On Blogging Daily & Going Commando
I am only now beginning to glimpse how valuable this daily blog is to me. I began with guidance, in this case the word “twelvemonth”. Then twelvemonth revealed itself as a “Twelvemonth of Self Love”. I already journal daily. I am also composing a Holy Dictionary with the incredible and beautiful definitions I hear from Holy Spirit. I write poetry because even my own wordiness gets in my way of expression and only the limits of a poem offers the relief of truth expressed. I also wrote a blog called Salvation...
read more10. Day 10: Fear Is A Stoplight
I woke up today with a feeling of shadow passing over me. I didn’t feel grey exactly but there was definitely a presence of gray with a soupçon of lurking. Since I actually feel rested, happy and satisfied I could notice this “feeling presence” without alarm. I got up and decided to have a cup of tea with this gray feeling presence and see what happened. First I lit a candle, put the kettle on and generally got comfortable. The gray seemed less ominous already but still present, just out of sight. Then these words...
read more10. Day 8 & 9: What Does Work Have To Do With It?
Ok. I admit it. It is kind of hard returning to work after being away for so long. Not hard in an impossible way but hard in a “I don’t actually remember how to” way. I literally do not quite remember how we fit so many things into a 24 hour period each day in the past. Even though we fit tons of cool things into each day (even including maintenance) on our adventure in England I can’t remember how to work, or even, if I am to be completely honest, what “work” even means. I can’t quite remember...
read more10. Day 7: Peace, Quiet & Jet Lag
Sometimes the infinite nature of Love feels scary. I am thrilled of course that Love is infinite, all powerful and ever present; ready, willing and able to be, forgive and comfort. But sometimes I need and want just the very teeniest of Love’s expressions; a look, stillness, a breath. The idea of BIG LOVE or even extending a quality of love can seem too much, overhwelming and not-enough all at the same time. This must be the time for utter stillness…..presence……….being……… I...
read more10. Day 6: A Better Question
I noticed yesterday if I felt the feeling of fear (tightness, churlishness or emptiness) I immediately wanted to know “of what”, like I must have something I am afraid of or it is not justified. Perhaps a better question would be “What am I not loving?” instead of “What am I afraid of?” Right now I am not loving the possibility that we have forgotten important procedural information after not using it for so long. I am not loving that there is still a mess of books, postcards, gifts to mail, receipts...
read more10. Day 5: Love Fear For Itself
Getting started with extending love to “fear itself” today and asked Holy Spirit where to start. HS: The best way way to deal with fear of fear itself is to love fear for itself and to let is guide you right back to your own loving heart. Notice and express the difficulty/ misstep/fear then be with it in awe and wonder. Extend a quality of love to this feeling of not-love. Me: Today I feel excited butterflies as we return to a work day. There is a feeling of resistance (“Oh, can’t I have one MORE day...
read more10. Day 4: Fear Of Fear Itself?
My daughter brought me to a standstill one day in London when I was saying that I was afraid of riding the incredibly long escalator in the Underground. She said “You are afraid. Full stop. You don’t need to add “of what”.” Oh. I always kind of thought the “of” rather justified and explained the fear. I suppose that it isn’t really necessary to define the how and why of the fear. A sense of fear is a coiling, blurring, resisting energy that blocks my awareness of Love’s Presence. It...
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