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10. Day 24: Go As Far As You Can See….
Fear is akin to a creeping darkness that dulls your vision slowly until you can’t go another step forward in the dark. It is the dark that calls for light. We want light so we can see. But what about seeing in the dark? For this there was the saying my Mother used to have that she would repeat on appropriate occasions. Usually those occasions were ones that faith, trust and willingness-to-wait were needed. The full saying is: Go as far as you can see, when you get there you will see farther. She even had this engraved on a silver...
read more10. Day 23: Someone Radically Blessed
I have always felt blessed throughout my life. Even in the desert times, the uncertain times or the plainly ridiculous God-you’ve-got-to-be-kidding-? times. I am not unfamiliar with both blessing and feeling blessed. Yesterday, though, I read my current favorite book, “A Year Without Fear” and came across a wonderful new edge to my view of blessing. The quote was a reminder that our own preciousness is far more powerful and less compromised when we do not judge others. Of course none of us see ourselves as judging...
read more10. Day 22: She Went Home Four Years Ago Today
“My Mother, My Self” Some times the grieving goes on for years before the last goodbye. The daily loss of life and living one less capability and memory little sense or truth yet love continued to shine in, through, beyond. I was almost too tired, worn and depleted to see it. But then gratitude would wash over me and clean me inside and out and I would give thanks for one more hour with Mother. She has been gone from this life, this earth and street four years ago today. Here’s God’s honest truth; I rarely miss her...
read more10. Day 21: A-Z of Fear
Fear in all it’s glorious forms and colors is all that stands in our way from being aware of Love’s Divine Presence all the time. There is no need to fear fear itself. Fear is nothing more than a contraction, a sharp intake of breath, a collapsing of thought. The more I shine the light on my fears the more they just seem like different coloring crayons used for shading, drama and spark. Still. Fear usually feels like anything from mild unpleasantness to abject misery. Use this A-Z guide to see if there is something you might...
read more10. Day 20: When Silence Calls
I love fog. It is a visible quiet, a presence that surrounds and muffles. Yesterday it added to a day that needed simple things; ironing, dishes washed, beds made, letters written. I noticed that each task was a meditation of sorts. A singular action I could focus on and fall in behind in meditation. My deep need for meditative silence was calling me in every way it could. Eventually I listened and put down my tools of housekeeping and gave myself up to the silence alone. “I Had A Dream” I finally gave in to the silence which...
read more10. Day 19: Worry In The Hands Of The Beloved
I placed my worries yesterday squarely in the hands of the Beloved, the Holy Spirit, Divine Order, God (however you say the One who holds all things in The Heart of Love). I continued to receive lovely messages of how to see worry and what to do with it instead. Beginning with this terrific quote from a new book I found in Petaluma last weekend when we returned our friend from Japan to his hotel: “If you care about someone, worry is the worst energy you can send. It directly transmits fear and restriction since we usually visualize...
read more10. Day 18: Yo’ Mama, Time To Extend Love
I woke up to this thought yesterday which I naturally wrote down in my journal. This was in preparation for today when I really needed it: “When you are experiencing fear of any kind the only decision to make is to extend love immediately; to your fear, your self, your circumstances and your feelings. Ask for help in doing this. Ask what quality of love to extend. Ask how to express this. When you are in the awareness of love, ask to be guided, open and aware of Love’s love that is flowing through you. All is well because all...
read more10. Day 17: Then There Were Three
“The Leaving” Both were on planes flying east gone from our sight yet not from our hearts The leaving left a prick at the back of my throat tears too weary to shed waited for acceptance This is the cruel evidence I manufacture to try to tell myself separation is real Forgetting that we are One in Him that Love is all we are scattered to the four corners SO we will remember that home in the Wholeness of our truth is the only place we want to be The tears come I have remembered I am home here, too Share this:TweetEmailMorePrintShare...
read more10. Day 16: Koala Mittens, Air Force One & Carrot Cake
It is always interesting to see how our last full day is spent before the family must separate again. I have (almost) given up trying to orchestrate “the perfect last day” and am learning to really trust whatever shows up. So there I was, sitting pretty in my trust and I get a phone call from Adam. I laughed because Adam and Eva were on the phone (I giggle easily). I commented as such and Adam burst out laughing, which was a good thing for both of us. Adam called to tell me the news about my car. His voice had the same tone...
read more10. Day 15: This Wretched Glory
Not fearing fear itself is better said by “allowing fear to be”. And fear is just another form of energy squeezing, shifting and tightening. Like what I am feeling right now. I would not describe this as fear exactly but more of a broiling kettle of near grief. Not end-of-life grief but an ending nevertheless. Our magnificent holiday ended with a sort of mini family gathering vacation at home. My youngest daughter had to return to the US to get a different visa for a longer stay in England and the fiance of my older daughter...
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