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11. Day 3: Breathe & Always ASK
I am continuing my bid to extend love to my fear of success (which feels much like a bear breathing down my neck) through reading a well-known and respected book about success by Jack Canfield (“The Success Principles”). I have had the privilege of hearing him speak twice at the BNI International Conference. Most recently in November of last year. It is seeing and hearing him that is giving me the willingness to persevere in the face of a type of book that usually leaves me nauseated or overwhelmed or both. Jack Canfield was a...
read more11. Day 2: The Language Of Success
I am at the “just noticing” stage of my fear of success. One of the things that drew my attention was the language of success. The words you use to describe success, the attitude behind success or the results of success all have a familiar ring. There are certain qualities we tend to think of when we contemplate success, either our own or another’s. It is not just a goal has been met (though that is part of it), or money has been made (thought this is a common measure) or that it is recognized (again, this often feels a...
read more11. Day 1: Gobsmacked! “The Fear That Chose Me”
You are going to love my next fear I am extending love to: “fear of success”! I kept trying to choose another one but this one just stood in the road with a sly grin on its face and said “It is my turn now”. I keep being drawn (as in being drawn then saying no, then being drawn again to seeing ALL is God and worth a look) to this rah, rah, book of Success Principles by Jack Canfield (you know, the guy who wrote the Chicken Soup for the Soul series). I always feel like sh** when I read these success type books and never get past the...
read more10. Day 31: A Beautiful Fear
The biggest shift I have had in this month of extending love to the fear of fear itself is finding that I m no longer afraid of fear. This does not mean that I don’t ever feel a feeling of fear (or annoyance, doubt or guilt) but that I can recognize the feel, taste and texture so much more quickly and can acknowledge it for what it is. Namely, a call to pause, ASK for guidance, help, perspective and extend love to all I am feeling or the circumstance in front of me. In lessening my fear of fear, fear is exposed as just another...
read more10. Day 30: Like Butter In A Dish
Judgment is fear. Fear is judgment. Judgment says “This cannot be as is.” Fear says “This should not be as is.” Judgement and fear are saying the same thing: NO. No to what is, no to what was, no to what should or shouldn’t be. No to how I am feeling, No to how you are feeling. No, no, no, No, NO, NOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo. It is the energy signature of stop, off, close, hide, flee. What if, instead, we just noticed the fear or judgment (same energy, different clothes)? What if we just noticed we were...
read more10. Day 29: First I Judge
My desire to judge a situation as hurtful-therefore-I-must-fix-this was revealed yesterday. I am seeing today, that the first thing that happens is that I judge a thing as hurtful to someone. I could just stop at “first I judge”, the “what I judge” is much like the “of” as in what am I afraid “of”. It is the fear itself all over again. Judgement is fear. Full stop. I could make a case for “because I am aware of this hurt I am supposed to do something about it”. The thing that...
read more10. Day 28: “I Could Fix This”
Recently three separate people from completely different backgrounds have shared some version of a story of a rift in their organization, family or political party. I sense both the feelings of powerlessness and of stubborn refusal to budge from a particular perspective. This feeling of divided-ness, rift or outright civil war is something we can all relate to in some way. Just fill in the blank with your own personal story of betrayal, unfairness or misunderstanding. What I noticed was a sneaky form of judgment that crept into my...
read more10. Day 27: The Feeling Formerly Known As Fear
This month with extending love to the fear of fear itself has been really interesting. Firstly, this was January, beginning of a new year and we had just come home from an epic, incredible 7 week trip. I have been in such a different place. It was as if our trip had sort of washed away the need for the “fear of______” story and allowed me to extend loving awareness into the face of fear. I am noticing more quickly when this energy of fear comes. It shuts down even while revving up but it feels different that fear used to...
read more10. Day 26: Monday, Thy Name Is Ugh
Here is the truth-ish…..I don’t want to be in this moment. Or rather I don’t think I want to be in this moment. It is Monday. The weekend was full, delightful and I need another day of rest. How does Monday roll around so regularly? There is nothing onerous I have to do today, the usual maintenance to business, home and life yet I feel a weary resistance to being right here, right now. I would suggest extending love to Monday and to now but I am feeling too mulish for that. I would consider just being. Though in this...
read more10. Day 25: Sacrifice, A Primer
A few days ago, I woke with a start from a dream of being with a dear friend in her car. We were driving along just fine and then I asked a question that so flustered my friend she lost control of the car. When I woke my heart was pounding and I was breathless just as if I had been in this terrifying moment. I could feel death’s longing before it went; that clinging to life, all the while knowing it is time to change forms. Naturally I turned to Holy Spirit for peace and explanation. Me: How am I clinging now to a form of life?...
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