I notice immediately that if my bedfellow, tiredness, is going to get out of bed then I must connect to something deeper, truer, more whole that tiredness allows me to feel. For this reason I am returning to another practice gleaned from my Voice for Love ministerial study and the Five Steps to Hearing Gods Voice. Step 1 is Extend love to your thoughts. Step 2 is Feel the Holy Spirit. I remembered how incredible the first times I became aware of Holy Spirit as a feeling, or feelings. I feel as if, perhaps, I have drifted away from that tangible remembrance of feeling Holy Spirit and am now, again, taking note and acknowledging what Holy Spirit feels like. Strangely enough Holy Spirit does not feel like tiredness. Or exhaustion, or weariness, or tired brain, monkey mind or depression.
I kind of feel like I am returning to kindergarten, or Drivers Ed. I am feeling a bit of resistance to taking the time to feel into the Holy Spirit as a feeling because “I don’t need this, I already believe….”. Yet here I am, day one of kindy sitting quietly with eyes closed and listening within. After my thoughts have dispersed (extending love to them keeps us from feeling adversarial) I ask “What do you feel like Holy Spirit?” Minutes go by and I feel ……….empty, quiet, present. Then I begin to feel the spaciousness communicating itself through a tingling throughout my body. Is this life energy? Is this what tiredness tries to cover over? The more time I spend the more sure I am of this bubbling over feeling of possibility. I “know” Holy Spirit but hey, there is nothing quite like the feelings of Love to really sharpen your awareness of Love’s Presence.
Feel the Holy Spirit
I believe if i am going to get beyond this ever present tiredness I am going to have to daily, feel into and acknowledge the feeling of Holy Spirit and in fact the energy of Life Itself. I am reminded of the marvelous quote from the Spontaneous Healing of Belief by Gregg Braden I quoted in the post That’s What Friends Are For about being “bathed in a field of intelligent energy”. That is what I want to feel, to know, to trust. It may take me practicing like trying to hit high C or walking 20 miles. It might take practicing EVERY DAY. (My EVERY DAY practice is the gift that keeps on giving!).
Perhaps my tiredness is the hard work of forgetting that Divinity within? If (and I actually beleive it is true) I AM connected to all things via this field of intelligent energy, then If I don’t wish to work hard/create tiredness/ use conflict as a a way of being then I can / AM able to let go of a thought pattern or cluster of thoughts that does not serve me and relax into the truth.
What is the truth again?
HS: You are Love.
Love is All.
The Universe, The All, is kind.
Let Kindness show you how to be and create in KINDNESS.
Excellent! Remember the feeling of Love’s Presence.
I need to remember to be kind to myself.
With God’s/HolySpirit’s help, I can be kind to myself.
Isn’t it strange that some of the kindest people we know forget to be kind to themselves. Just think, Holy Spirit IS Kindness and when we let that flow we all reap the joyous benefit! xoxo
Yes, I, too am often called back,and I too, so often forget that my practice makes my life, my day so much better. I relate so much to what you share.And I too, catch myself thinking, I should have that practice by now, and it should be built in?? or something? Thank you so much for sharing. I too,have been staying tired. Depressed, blah!
Let’s extend love together to this tiredness we share. Let it be our awakening to Grace alarm clock! xo
My Dear Friend, thank you for your inspiration on exhaustion. I have to take a deep look at my inner spirit, and as myself and I quote a very inspiration and dear friend “I don’t need this, I already believe….”. Yet here I am, day one of kindy sitting quietly with eyes closed and listening within. After my thoughts have dispersed (extending love to them keeps us from feeling adversarial) I ask “What do you feel like Holy Spirit?” Minutes go by and I feel ……….empty, quiet, present. Then I begin to feel the spaciousness communicating itself through a tingling throughout my body. Is this life energy?
Thank you Eva!!!!
Where two or more are gathered in His name……..tiredness is on notice, we are off to feel the Spirit the wonderful Spirit of All! Tra la! xoxoxo