As my month of extending love to the fear of letting go wraps up I stand in gratitude for all I have come to see. A mere four weeks ago (!) I held tightly to all I loved (and even to anything I didn’t love, now that I think about it) and could see no other way of being. The month my Holy Friend chose for me to remind myself of the Love that I am in the form of a month of extending love to the fear of Letting Go. My practice extending love to letting go this month has released something new, yet ancient in me. I don’t need to “hold on tight” to anything, not even love, for I am already fully and completely connected by the very fabric of the universe. This fabric, this energy field, this BEING IS. And I AM. And there is nothing wrong. Ever. Letting go is but a natural phase and step of blossoming awareness of: “This, too, is Love”. I can breathe more deeply and fully and let go of all I thought Love wasn’t and abide in what/who/where Love IS. Letting go is not letting go of something other than a thought. I have learned I can let go of a thought, especially when I extend love to the thought. In extending love I am joined with the thought at a cellular level and need not fear the thought. At this place of peace I can be guided as to what to do/say/feel next in the face of “Good bye.”, “I hurt.”, or “It is finished.”
This simple poem I wrote speaks to letting go of the day and my thoughts of wishing it were another day. It is a perfect practice of letting go into.
“Letting Go of Today”
If this was Saturday
I’d crawl back into bed
nuzzle your scratchy face
and say I love you more and more
But today today is Wednesday.
We’d sleep another hour or two
and get up to eggs and toast
coffee and the paper on the porch
with time stretched out before us
But today is Wednesday
and its time for a walk, work
and a quick peck on the cheek
a flying breakfast and a fleeting hug
but I still love you
more and more
again and again
day in and day out
Together we fill in
every day of the week
with one another
