The Golden Elixir of Now
I often wonder how to integrate into my living the vastness of eternity and God-is-Love with the concept of NOW, this minute here right in front of me. More importantly, how do I feel the vastness without immediately slipping into feeling overwhelmed? My Holy Friend is who I turn to in all things, especially the ones that make you want to shout “WTF???!!!” at the top of your lungs. Me: So how do I claim the vastness without experiencing overwhelm? How do I feel All-That-Is without screaming “TOO MUCH!!!”? HS: Precious One, You but need to see the vastness in the...
Read MoreHow Can Joy & Grief Live Side By Side?
As I began to take in the miracle of integration happening during the intensity of last year I sought daily guidance for living what felt completely and utterly impossible; daily wedding joys and deadlines coexisting with moment by moment prayer requests and updates from the bedside of my cousin’s son in (what we would learn were to be) his final days. This was intense joy intertwined with deep grief. I could only go within (about every five minutes) and ask for comfort, guidance, relief and peace in the intense NOW that was unfolding. Just days before the wedding, in one 24 hour...
Read MoreA Course of Love
Late last year, smack dab in the middle of the wedding hubbub I came across a breathtaking spiritual text I couldn’t get enough of. It was as if I had found a new translation of the Bible, I had never dared believe existed. This text, these words, this book straight from the heart of Jesus into my own (bedraggled, exhausted, hurried) heart was indeed the salvation I had asked for. Because I was so desperate for any and all help to stretch time, bring eternity into our midst and because I was grateful to sit (even if only for a moment) and just listen, I was smitten from the first...
Read MoreThe Clarity Clause
“I just don’t know what to do….” she said softly. I could picture the fat tears slowly making their way down her cheek. “Grrrr, no news yet. Waiting is SO HARD.” “WTF?!! What are we going to do NOW?” I know several friends going through that path oft travelled where you catch yourself saying “I don’t know” a hundred times an hour. That time of fog and stand-stillness when you do not know which way to turn. It is as hard to watch another feel the betwixt and between as it is to feel it yourself. Thankfully, my Holy Friend...
Read MoreFear Not Your Path
I have noticed it is relatively easy for me to feel overwhelmed. It might be because I have too much on my plate or in my day. Sometimes it is because I find myself embarrassed or feeling oafish at an untoward thought or retort. Finally, I am beginning to see this feeling of overwhelm as more of an alarm clock I set myself to wake me to unloving tendencies or fears rather than the onslaught or annihilation I used to think of it as. The Holy Spirit reminds me again (and again and again…..) that fear is just a reminder to open my eyes. The next time you feel overwhelmed, or stupid or...
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