10. Day 26: Monday, Thy Name Is Ugh
Here is the truth-ish…..I don’t want to be in this moment. Or rather I don’t think I want to be in this moment. It is Monday. The weekend was full, delightful and I need another day of rest. How does Monday roll around so regularly? There is nothing onerous I have to do today, the usual maintenance to business, home and life yet I feel a weary resistance to being right here, right now. I would suggest extending love to Monday and to now but I am feeling too mulish for that. I would consider just being. Though in this moment, it feels like being comes with a price-tag...
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A few days ago, I woke with a start from a dream of being with a dear friend in her car. We were driving along just fine and then I asked a question that so flustered my friend she lost control of the car. When I woke my heart was pounding and I was breathless just as if I had been in this terrifying moment. I could feel death’s longing before it went; that clinging to life, all the while knowing it is time to change forms. Naturally I turned to Holy Spirit for peace and explanation. Me: How am I clinging now to a form of life? What do I not want to let go of? HS: Sacrifice Me:...
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Fear is akin to a creeping darkness that dulls your vision slowly until you can’t go another step forward in the dark. It is the dark that calls for light. We want light so we can see. But what about seeing in the dark? For this there was the saying my Mother used to have that she would repeat on appropriate occasions. Usually those occasions were ones that faith, trust and willingness-to-wait were needed. The full saying is: Go as far as you can see, when you get there you will see farther. She even had this engraved on a silver Paul Revere bowl to celebrate my Dad finishing...
Read More10. Day 23: Someone Radically Blessed
I have always felt blessed throughout my life. Even in the desert times, the uncertain times or the plainly ridiculous God-you’ve-got-to-be-kidding-? times. I am not unfamiliar with both blessing and feeling blessed. Yesterday, though, I read my current favorite book, “A Year Without Fear” and came across a wonderful new edge to my view of blessing. The quote was a reminder that our own preciousness is far more powerful and less compromised when we do not judge others. Of course none of us see ourselves as judging others but I was exposed to the nub because though I...
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“My Mother, My Self” Some times the grieving goes on for years before the last goodbye. The daily loss of life and living one less capability and memory little sense or truth yet love continued to shine in, through, beyond. I was almost too tired, worn and depleted to see it. But then gratitude would wash over me and clean me inside and out and I would give thanks for one more hour with Mother. She has been gone from this life, this earth and street four years ago today. Here’s God’s honest truth; I rarely miss her (and I have been known to miss anything from the...
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