7. Day 21: Honesty & Silence Can Work Together
The thing about honesty that was always a stumbling block was that I always thought honesty had to tell or say out loud it’s truth for it to be counted as honesty. You would think this would have been a blessing to someone who is so keen on talking and conversation but it felt just the opposite. I am discovering that honesty can be completely expressed by silence, quiet and the word not spoken. I got to experience this recently in a completely delightful way. (I have noticed, btw, that the more I face, accept, am willing to look at my fears that Holy Spirit can teach me things via...
Read More7. Day 20: A Squirrel Peed On My Head
I was reading an old journal recently and came across this quote I had noted from my then newly hired Life Coach: “Honesty is transformative.” I remember thinking at the time that it bloody well would need to be magic to be worth the risk. I was in that phase of life that I now come to think of Boot Camp. You are just slogging through with one thing after another piled on your plate to the point that even a platter isn’t enough and you are dragging around a little red wagon with the mish-mash of your days spilling out all over the place. This was a time of huge...
Read More7. Day 19: 100 Reasons Why Panic Is My Friend
Yesterday I shared my experience of a recent assessment that left me inundated with nervousness that felt a lot like panic. I determined that this energy was surely a gift if I could only see it that way. My lists of 100 Reasons Why have become a great tool for me to hear the Holy Spirit within me when I am really stumped. “100 Reasons Why Nervous Energy (aka Panic) Is My Friend” There is nothing wrong with nervous energy Energy is energy All forms of energy are forms of love Love loves me I am Love I can learn to love in all colors & flavors because that is what I...
Read More7. Day 18: Peer Tour Review
My fear of honesty was really brought to the front burner this week. I am a docent at the Crocker Art Museum. I love being a docent. I love getting to hang out at an art museum as if it were my own. I love the mini performance that giving a tour is. I LOVE my fellow docents and the staff at the museum. I was led as if by the hand of Jesus to this opportunity. Yet when it came time for the Peer Tour Review I felt so nervous I was sure I was going to pass out, throw up or flee to the nearest bar. Know that this is truly the gentlest of assessments to make sure we docents are on the...
Read More7. Day 17: Wisdom Is Not Knowing
I get a lot of epiphanies in the bath. The quiet, the water, and the cleansing must make me feel like church. This morning this thought floated out on the steam: “Wisdom is not knowing more, it is just that you stop running from what you don’t know.” I must have been the only teenager who longed to be 45 (oldest I could imagine at the time). At 45, I was certain I would know all I needed to know, then I could proceed happily and live a safe and comfortable life. Well, 45 came and went and I was no wiser. Now that 55 came and went (just weeks ago) I realized I was no...
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