6. Day 25: Yo’ Mama!
I am in a peculiar dither. It is time to really move deeper into a new phase of mothering and I feel like I am moving through a river of molasses carrying an 80 lb pack. This is the slow uncertainty that often precedes the eye-opening transformation already in progress. It doesn’t feel good. I feel blind, deaf, and most certainly dumb. How do I continue being a Mother without being a “MUTHER”. Standing back is not my strong suit. Wanting to share everything is. What happens when it is time to truly let your children walk their own paths? I’ll tell you. Late...
Read More6. Day 24: Cascade Of Joy & Gratitude
Annoyance is a quality of my tiredness. Or is tiredness a quality of my annoyance? Let’s just say they come together. Recently our older corgi, Matilda had a rash that got infected. Yuck and ugh. The vet gave her a long course of antibiotics and special shampoo. Of course I have to administer both, which is nearly as much fun at root canal work without the benefit of a kind dentist. Part of the problem is that this dog is carrying too much weight for her frame, this combined with a bit of contact dermatitis led to the greater problem. You can see my annoyance goes deeper than...
Read More6. Day 23: Under The Influence
Thank God I got a good nights sleep last night and a great walk this morning. My much needed meditation and quiet time seems to show up exactly as needed whether in the middle of the night from 3-4am laying in bed or on the porch as the sun comes up. I continue to feel into my body to connect my awareness to the feeling of joy and Holy Spirit. Just my doing this opens my eyes to it is done already. Today I feel a spaciousness and calm, a general warmth and tingling, breath, heartbeat, itchiness here and there and gratitude, as if my cells are thanking me. Today I am pondering influence....
Read More6. Day 22: Resistance & A Day At The Beach
Recently I woke up on the appointed day of our annual girls beach outing and was………………tired. I know, it is so boring by now you’d think I’d give up on this. These were the tired thoughts: “I don’t want to go”, “I’m too tired”, “The drive is too long” blah, blah and more blah. Thankfully my daily extending love practice showed up just in time before I picked up the phone and whispered “Can we cancel?” Here is what I noticed first: none of these thoughts felt like love. They...
Read More6. Day 21: Coach Notes
One of the things I love is working with a coach. The coaches I have worked with have literally changed the course of my life. Maybe it is better to say they have changed my experience of living, which has utterly changed the course of my life. Recently, in keeping with my blogging project and this month’s extending love to tiredness I brought this up in a recent coaching session. A coaching session is kind of like having a Holy Spirit session with someone else taking notes. If I allow and welcome the process I receive rich reward. If I resist, thwart and ignore the process I...
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